story of a girl ;

SHIFTED!

2005-10-25T00:52:00.000+08:00

HELLO!!! =D

I'VE SHIFTED TO www.threelittlepiglets.blogspot.com
PLS RELINK ME!

LOVE :)) *BIG GRIN*

sometimes you just have to let somethings go.

2005-10-24T15:14:00.000+08:00

service was great ytd! rayl came with me! the girls didn't manage to wake up. i try again next week! have faith! :))

pastor kong's so funny! he preached about life and how to be strong in the midst of tough times. i'll blog about it again!
after that went to NUS again but i just hanged around and jun was teaching me how to play the guitar. i wanna learn! had fun! love them all! N293 rocks! :))

watch skeleton key with lileen, eileen, alex and rayl. i thought it was quite nice. haha. i was really engrossed during the movie. very exciting.

went to lileen's hse to celebrate her birthday after that! it was fun. i love her family! everything was so heart-warming. her sis gave her an ipod and she cried! aww. hahah. hope she enjoyed it!
I LOVE TOFFEE, HEBE, AND DOUDOU !! :))

might be going out ltr. LOVE all :))

happy birthday lileen!

2005-10-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

THIS ENTRY IS SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO MY DEAREST, PRETTIEST,SWEETEST, CUTEST AND CLEVEREST LILEEN.

LOOK! I MADE YOU THE MAIN CHARACTER LEH.

HAPPY FIFTEEN BIRTHDAY!!!!
thanks for coming into my life and making it so colourful and happy. we'll always always always be the best of friends. LOVE YOU TO BITS. =D
promise me to be happy always! and may all your wishes come true.

and you should be touched to be the first person ever i dedicate my entire blog entry to!
p.s : your present abit belated but i still love you lah.
MUACCCCCKSS. =D

prayer brings personal revival. (: whoohoo.

2005-10-22T21:32:00.000+08:00

*long long entry! *BIG SMILE*
went to school for some cip thing early in the morning. i was quite late. jeremy called or else i probably wouldn't go and have to make up another 8 hours of cip. thanks jeremy!! you best already. haha.
I LOVE 3E2 AND MY CLASS GIRLS!! (:
rach, becca, cheryl, mich, houjun, yingtong and lifen! =D
after that went to play pool with rayson, lileen and eileen again! (:

i've something new to share this week!! *BEAMS* cell group mtg was great today!!! learnt alot and had alot of fun. i'm so glad i made it there because i was kinda reluctant to go at first. for the past days, i feel myself drifting away from HIM and now i feel HIS presence again! (: praise the lord! Leila preached about
Prayer bringing personal revival. it really made me realise the importance of prayer.

if we are not experiencing God's presence, it because we've shifted our position of faith. HE is always there but you have to make a decision to get to know him and accept him. You must be willing to take the first step and open your heart to allow room for Jesus in you.

WHY IS PRAYER SO IMPORTANT?
1) prayer opens the heavens over me
be willing to pray and believe that God will help you. don just pray for the sake of praying.
-you must be a sincere and earnest prayer and BELIEVE that God will help you.

2) prayer makes us attractive to the holy spirit
sometimes we don't know how we should pray and what we should exactly pray for. the holy spirit helps us and bring us closer to God.
but we must be willing to commit to God to see the will of God and what God wants you to be.
-prayer brings the presence of holy spirit to us

3) prayer makes us more and more like God
If you spend alot of time with your friends, you'll eventually become closer and become more like them. Likewise, if you spend more time with God, you will change to become more like him.
God has a purpose for our life and we must discover who we are meant to be in HIM.
-prayer transforms us

4) prayer breaks the stubborness of my rebellious flesh.
( i find this exceptionally meaningful )
the rebellious flesh means what in you which is opposing the will of God.
for example, you might not feel like attending chruch, nor cellgrp because you are tired or even just beacuse you don't feel God's presence. Little things that happen make you lose faith.
that is because your rebellious flesh is telling and making you feel that way.
SIN: the inward spiritual attitude of rebellion towards God.
But, you can make a decision to live for God and crucify our flesh.
always be ready for the presence of God in your life.

Prayer breaks the flesh of stubborness in us. It will build us up spiritually and make us a stronger person on the inside so that we would not be tempted and weakened by our rebellious flesh.
and to bulid up our innerself spiritually, we need DISCIPLINE.
everything in the future is determined by the decisions you make. to acheive what you want, you need discipline.
e.g it's okay to have fun and play once in a while but you need discipline yourself to do certain things which are ought to be done.

Make decisions NOT based on your feelings/emotions. that would limit you from your destiny. make decisions rationally. you have to change. - stop giving yourself excuses.
-pray with faith and believe in HIM.

5) prayer releases the power of God in your life.
Commit yourself and do what you should do. Believe in the power of prayer.
for e.g this man might not be a very capable person, but because he prayed and believed that God would help him, he accomplished tasks which he thought was beyond his limits.

this really helped me alot in understanding more. i just want to share and let everyone know that God is always there, it's whether you are willing to take the first step to accept and let him help you.

jeff prayed for our chruch's moving to expo in 2 weeks time. i thought it was really meaningful and what everybody in chc would really wish for. it's not the distance that matters and which will discourage the people from going for the services but that people would go there for the sake for God. let's pray for everything to go smoothly! (:

it was great hearing all the testimonies on the overnight prayer meeting! PRAISE THE LORD!! =D
i didn't manage to go cuz my parents didn't allow. (: so many of them went and shared about it. haha. it sounds so interesting and fun. fiona fell asleep during the prayer meeting!! haha.

jac's maid cooked mee and then played billard with victor, angie and joshua after cell grp. jeff and rach was teaching me how to play guitar. i wanna learn!!
LOVE N293!!! =D

i'm so looking forward to church tmr. rayl, lileen and eileen are joining me! taking the shuttle bus cuz the evan's van is like so packed already. i'm tired!!! yoooohooooooo.

oh ya something funny happened on the train just now when i was with leila. haha this old man started talking to me. then he said i was clever and pretty!! *lalalalaa* and then HE GAVE ME HIS ADDRESS. hahaha ask me visit him. hahahaha. leila! you can visit him! =D
alrights enough! haha.
NIGHTS!! LOVE (:

we'll see how it goes.

2005-10-21T23:19:00.000+08:00

didn't go school today cuz i was sick and also i didn't feel like it. met lileen, janice, xiaowei, eileen and shihui to play bowling and billard at farrer park again! haha. quite fun. LOVE you girls : ))

after that went to eileen's hse to watch -a moment to remember-. very sad and made me think about alot of things. talk about stuff with eileen at the bus stop. thanks! love ya.

maybe because exams are over and i have no more books to keep me occupied, i'm starting to think alot lately.
i'm really grateful for all the wonderful people in my life. every single one of them. i can't express how much they mean to me.

i suddenly thought of herman and jiasheng. we kinda drifted apart this year because we were in different classes. but i still love you guys k! thanks for everything for the past 3 years. best friends forever!!!

i'm uncertain of many things and i just hope everything will turn out fine.
LOVE YA ALL (: NIGHTS.

a girl can dream

Verse 1

When I was a child, the story would say
Somebody would sweep you off your feet someday.
That's what I hoped would happen with you,
more then you could know.
I wanted to tell you, that my heart's in your hands.
I prayed for the day that I would get the chance,
'N just when I worked up, the courage to try.
Much to my surprise,
you had somebody else, yeah yeah.
'Cos these feelings, I keep to myself.

Chorus

I may never get to hold you so tight,
I may never get to kiss you goodnight,
I may never get to look deep in your eyes,
or so it seems.
I always will be wishing you were mine,
I think about what could be all the time,
all the happiness that I could find.
Baby...a girl can dream.

Verse 2

From the moment I wake up, 'til I fall asleep,
I imagine you not with her, but with me.
Talking and laughing, sharing our dreams,
it's just a fantasy, 'cos you had somebody else,
'cos these feelings I keep to myself.

Chorus

I may never get to hold you so tight,
I may never get to kiss you goodnight,
I may never get to look deep in your eyes,
or so it seems.
I always will be wishing you were mine,
I think about what could be all the time,
all the happiness that I could find.
Baby...a girl can dream.

A girl can dream...it's true,
and to call you my own,
it's the sweetest dream known.

Chorus

I may never get to hold you so tight,
I may never get to kiss you goodnight,
I may never get to look deep in your eyes,
or so it seems.
I always will be wishing you were mine,
I think about what could be all the time,
all the happiness that I could find.
Baby...a girl can dream.

Ohh, a girl can dream.

(Hmm mm)

i'm not sure how you really feel towards me, but i still really like you. i want you to be happy! (:
i miss you darius.

results.

2005-10-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

i have got one good news and one bad news! (:
first, we got back our results today. my results were extremely atrocious and lousy. that's what you get for not studying hard. i am not going to go into detail. heh. I NEED TUITION!!! i was prepared for the worse so i didn't cry and feel too sad. just regretted for not studying enough.
i'll do my very very very best next year!

CHEER UP EVERYONE!!!! esp houjun and cheryl. LOVEE!! (:

for the good news. *BIG BIG SMILE* integritas got champion for badminton for sport fiesta!!! anyways to the main point. LET ME HAOLIAN ABIT CAN. i won the female singles and doubles! 2nd for mixed doubles! INTEGRITAS ROCKS!!!!
thanks alex, houjun, becca, mich and yingtong!

went to meet jiayu after that for dinner. then leila for bible study. actually i was kinda tired to really concentrate. heh. see you girls on sat!! LOVE (:

oh ya almost forgot something fun happened today! haha. we went to breeks! restaurant at amk for an ettiqute course. that's like very cool lah but we just went there to eat. hahaha. suppose to pair up with a guy then he should pull out ur seats for you that kinda thing lah. haha.
nicholas is such a great date!!! =D

nites all. i'm so drained. and my flu is really really bad.

sick.

2005-10-19T22:42:00.000+08:00

i'm sick!!! i hate having flu and i am freezing right now. hope i get well soon. (:

i'm feeling much better today! thanks eileen and lileen! school was quite boring. went to play billard at farrer park. quite fun.

LOVE ALL (: thanks sarah for calling. see ya on sat!

ugh.

2005-10-18T21:11:00.000+08:00

i'm so ~~throughly~~ thoroughly BROKE this time. spent 40 bucks on online shopping and spent like another near 40 again today! it was quite a fun day. kinda lazy to blog everything so i'll just keep it short.

went to watch -wait till you're older- the andy lau show. it's really really touching! three of us were tearing when we came out lah. then went to cafe cartel for lunch. then played arcade. then went to play bowling and billard at farrer park.

i spoilt everybody's mood. my fault.
sorry shihui eileen and lileen.

i cried so much today!!! just watched stairway to heaven. very touching also. haha. haven cried so much for a longgg time! it's feels good (:

your unfailing LOVE*

yay!

2005-10-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

yoooooohoooo!!! eileen came with me for service today and lileen is coming next week! PRAISE THE LORD! special thanks to jeff, jiayu, leila and N293!

so glad they came along for the games cuz i think they enjoyed it. thanks jeff! i really really wish they would get closer to God and get to know him for themselves over time. it's been a great day! thanks girls. LOVE! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA!

i'm kinda drained out already. going with the girls to east coast tmr! =D
i'm gonna have faith and reach out to the people! if the PLM girls can do that i can too!
FAITH*

lalala fun*

2005-10-15T22:51:00.000+08:00

went to jacq's place for cell grp just now. the houses there are really huge man. practically all the bungalows there have swimming pools. if only i was as rich.

it was quite fun. had games, testimony, praise and worship, bible study and then playtime! refreshments was jiayu's pie. she didn't make it lah her mum did. haha.
LOVE THEM ALL! N293 ROCKS! i love leila!
tons of pictures!!! =D
*big smile*

FIRST OF ALL, THE MOST ADORABLE CLASS IN NORTHVISTA.

3E2! =D for a bigger view on the picture or click here. FIND ME AH.

the fun shot! me with zhen and rach. same for bigger view here.

then pictures at cellgrp today.

me shirleen and wenhui! (:

and again.

shirleen, leila and me!

wenhui and me.

shirleen, wenhui, jiayu, jeff, and er i forget her name but she's mad too lah. haha. LOVE THEM ALL!

some neoprints i was suppose to scan like million years ago. sorry eileen lileen rayl zhiyi and alex!

the three of them.

the five of us. (:

and finally MY ELEVEN PLUS BABES! love (:

that's it. nites all! eileen is coming with me to chruch tmr!!! yay. love (:

beautiful saturday morning.

2005-10-15T12:20:00.000+08:00

finally got to sleep in late today. i haven done that for ages. and that JIAYU had to wake me up just to bug me to cellgroup to eat the pies she made. thanks ah.

still feeling abit sleepy.
aiya i dunno what to blog alr. takecare all. LOVE (:

(:

2005-10-15T00:49:00.000+08:00

p.s: the previous entry was deleted because i wrote it in an extremely tired and frustrated mood.

stop adding me in msn if you don't know me!!! (:

anyways, EXAMS ARE OVER! no more mugging through the night and last minute revisions. =D

went with the girls to eat sushi after the paper today! quite fun. LOVE YA GIRLS (:
eileen. lileen. xiaowei. mabel. sujun. jinxian. hazel. eunice. janice. huijuan. < 3
some pictures =D not exactly nice but i'm still cute. *BIG SMILE*

HUIJUAN AND ME.

HAZEL AND ME.

SUJUN AND ME.

JINXIAN AND ME.

SUSHI!!! =D
i've got a bad hair day.

lots of things happened actually but i can't remember. xD anyways rayl and the grp of guys got fined lah for going into the lrt without tapping the card. ah retards.
nites all. LOVE (:

i love this song!

2005-10-12T21:05:00.000+08:00

I'M SOSO IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG! =D
simon webbe - lay your hands
pls go and download it! (: or get it frm me. thanks charmaine!
www.letssingit.com for lyrics! (:

exams been okay. school's boring lately.
i really love watch the show - wang zi bian qing wa -
i think it's really really nice lah. so sweet.

-

Feel this road is getting longer now 
And i'm too far away 
Still I gotta keep on moving on.
but i can't do it on my own.

big smile

2005-10-10T20:38:00.000+08:00

helllloooo! =D
i have a surprise for you. *grins*
i got a new name!
went to the lawyer's for a deed poll today. so from today onwards i'm officially -
NICOLETTE NG ZI NING!
tell me not nice i also put already. anyways the deed poll was only 75 bucks. cheap compared to other law firms so let me know if you need contacts for the lawyer. :))

think everybody won't get used to it. they are so used to calling me jenny or zining. hahaha.
btw it's prounouced as nee-ko-LET. let as in LET. aiya nvm. *big smile*

i love my dad!!! =D

went to meet the girls jicai and derrick at BK after that. was suppose to study lah but then ~~we ended up talking~~ they ended up BULLYING me.
KHOO LILEEN. EILEEN CHIN YU LING.
DERRICK GOH QI RUI AND THAT LING JICAI.
hope you all walk and fall down. *snorts*

had fun lah but i think they had more fun. haha. gonna get my beauty sleep and mug through the night for physics tmr. :))
THREE MORE PAPERS TO GO! wheeeeeeeeeeeeheee*

lalalalala*

2005-10-09T21:46:00.000+08:00

FOUR MORE DAYS! *BIG SMILE* :))

i'm not actually that excited lah. just looking forward to NOT STUDYING anymore.
went to kovan to study today at delifrance. i love the girls!!!
i know LILEEN really LOVES me LAH. *grins* HAHAHAHA.

i'm feeling lazy and fat again. HOW AH. aiya whatever.

READ THIS! aww. so nice. which guy will ever do that?!

i was reading this blog lah and then yadayada long story. anyways,

MY PERFECT BF.
1) smart, cute, smart, cute, smart, cute.
2) loves me more than i love him!
3) do things he doesn't like just for me.
4) give in to me even though it's my fault.
5) doesn't critisize what i like.
6) i can talk to him about anything!
7) learn to rollerblade for me.
8) tell me he loves me a million times a day.
9) do sweet stuff now and then (like at least once a week) to make me happy.
10) make me laugh. make me smile.
11) puts me before himself.
12) sensitive.
13) able to understand me and tolerate my nonsense.
14) honest.

LALALALA* i know i'm not the prettiest thing on earth to deserve such a boyfriend but then I WANT LAH. hope some cute and nice guy appears right in front of me. hahaha. k lah i'm mad. i'm going to study soon i think. xD nites all. LOVE! :))

and ~~i know i'm not the prettiest thing on earth~~ I AM. *BIG SMILE*

love is letting your loved ones get the greatest happiness.

2005-10-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

it's been a pretty bad week, or rather not so good week. partly because of course of exams. i obviously didn't put in my best. and also i've been having alot of craving for food lately. ugh.

i'm still quite in the lazy mood. EVEN THOUGH IT'S EXAM PERIOD. when i still have like 5 more subjects i haven completed studying, i'm still sitting around at home. eat, shit and sleep.
wth is wrong with me?!

i can't seem to get the motivation to STUDY, to EAT LESS and to EXERCISE MORE. if this continues ~~i'll probably get fatter and fatter.~~ no, i won't.
don't think i wanna go out and study this weekend and next week. too much distractions. (food, noise and handsome guys) i know it's up to me but I JUST CANNOT CONCENTRATE LAH.

i need somebody somewhere to shut my fat mouth and stop me from eating 24/7. i NEED to lose weight DESPERATELY. aiya I'M FEELING FAT AGAIN LAH.

you are probably be tired reading my sickening complains about being fat, being lazy and whatever. i heard a million times.
-you are the way you are but you can change the way you are-
but it's seriously NOT EASY. i know lah. i always say can one but actually i cannot. THE PROBLEM IS ME LAH KKKK.

i'm in the mood to swear curse and everything but it just isn't that good. AIYA I WISH I WAS A MILLION TIMES PRETTY, SLIMMER, CLEVERER AND SMARTER. shucks.
i'm starting to hate myself again.
i contradict my words, myself way too much.

actually i'm fine lah. i just wanna complain. =D

lallalaa*

2005-10-02T22:27:00.000+08:00

in case you were planning to nag and remind me (like what xiongwei ALWAYS does), YES I KNOW I SHOULD BE STUDYING RIGHT NOW. but it's okay to take a break ~~once in a while~~
right?

was reading this blog. i quite like it. very interesting and deep. there's this really cute angmoh guy in one of the pics! :)) enjoy.

my inbox's like flooded with msgs. everybody's sending me good luck for exams. THANKS ALL. i'm lazy to send lah so if you read this you sure get full marks already. xD GOOD LUCK AND STUDY HARD K! LOVE :))

chruch was great today! very fun lah. jeff's so funny! jiayu was mad as usual lah. love ya all! didn't go for lunch with leila and the others cuz i needed to study. heh.
went to meet the girls, jicai and derrick at starbucks. i left after awhile. sorry! kinda tired. :))

and now for my WEEKLY LESSONS! =D *BEAMS*
pastor talked about -seizing the moment- and that jesus came to bring new things to us, to transform us. HE wants to reveal new things to the people through us(chc).
Eccl 3:1
There's a time for everything, a season for every activity under heaven.
you have to understand which season you are in and don't miss opportunities.

God wants us to breakthrough into new things BUT there will be CHALLENGES.
(the things holding you back and you are hesistating whether you should do it or not)
1) The past: bondages
things which should and are suppose to be put away. it comes back.
2) The present: hesitation
it always happen at an inconvinient time. obstacles holding you back.
3) The future: fear
you wonder what's going to happen next.
4) Temptation
you'll be distracted but overcome them. be aware and do what you should be. stay focus.
5)Resources
you will be short of certain things, manpower. etc. but if God gives you the chance to do it, he WILL make it happen.
6)Relationships
will be stretched. e.g; you want to be more commited to chruch but that also means you will lose time with your friends/familes. be prepared. increase your ability to manage your time.

God rewards us not for how long we've lived but for HOW MUCH WE'VE ACCOMPLISHED.
ask yourself, what have you done with you life?
John 16:14
ASK AND YOU'LL RECEIVE.
if you ask and don't receive, you are asking amiss. you must be willing to step out of your comfort zone and move on. i feel i'm contradicting what pastor has said. heh. but don't learn from me! ALRIGHT. STUDY TIME ALREADY. love all :)) *hugs and kissies*

*do something with the time God has given us, make use of the time to fufil what God has for your life.

i feel i'm contradicting what pastor has said. heh. but don't learn from me! ALRIGHT. STUDY TIME ALREADY. love all :)) *hugs and kissies*

and than i see it coming again.

2005-10-01T17:45:00.000+08:00

just came home from studying with jicai derrick eileen lileen rayl and ivan. saw zhenhui and james at starbucks too. I LOVE THEM ALL!!! (:
it was really fun lah. we played at the interchange. laugh till i stomach pain. i want jicai they all to be still in school next year! or else no fun ler. you guys better make it for o'lvls! =D

chatting with darius now lah. hmm, talking about relationships.
i hate feeling so lost and upset because of relationships.
i wish i never had to experience breakups and rejection.
i wish everybody wasn't just so shallow.
i wish there was somebody just made for me.

it's really hard to find somebody you really like and he likes you the same way you like him too. but i believe there's always that person lah. i just haven found him yet. RIGHT? xD haha. so those who are attached and are HAPPY (eileen), cherish your partners k! =D you never know what's gonna happen tmr. :))

k lah. I MUST BE HAPPY =D tkecare all. *HUGS*

grins

2005-09-30T23:17:00.000+08:00

MRS AVARAMI TANG is such a nice teacher! she's really generous lah. she gave us kitkats and cardnotes for childrens' day. and my grp members got a $10 popular voucher each cuz we got highest points for the year! *BIG SMILE AT YINGTONG* wahahaha.
she must have spent alot on all of us. thanks mrs tang! =D

my birthday is coming soon. i mean not soon lah. ONE MONTH. but then i'm excited already. i wanna see my hp inbox filled with birthday wishes at 12 midnight! *HINTS* of course presents lah.
but nth much i particularly want right now so wait till come alr then i tell you all ah. can save money first. =D no need buy bra already. weian buying. hahaha.

lileen's birthday is coming first. 23 OCTOBER. *lalala.

EXAMS START ON MONDAY. study hard everyone!
muaaccks. love (:

maybe.

2005-09-29T23:01:00.000+08:00

was LATE for school today! i overslept. heh. : )) fine. i'm such a PIG. went to study with the girls and kangjie at kovan today. lileen was mad. i think i was quite in the studying mood today so didn't play much.

was with andy on the bus just now. talked about alot of stuff lah. didn't complete the conversation. hah. talk next time k! : ))

i really enjoy chinese lessons. i love bickering with houjun, yingtong, yengjie, sinteck and JEREMY ONG. he's mad. he says he can CRACK MY BAG. ?!?!? HE HAS FAT FINGERS! hahaha.

i'm always chatting to the same few people online. jason, aivern, xiongwei, jason, aivern, jason, jason, JASON. thanks jason and aivern! cuz when i'm bored always got you two to ENTERTAIN me. aivern is just so funny.

i think i'm lucky. i've got so many FUNNY people in my life. they make me happy! LOVE all : ))

girl in your dreams.

Na na na na, na na na na, Yeaaeaaah
Na na na na, na na na na

I was walking down the street one day
And then I saw you, I didn't know what to say
Your eyes were shining
Your smile was so kind
When I saw you, I wanted you to be mine

Maybe I don't have the blonde hair you like
Or maybe I don't have eyes like the sky
And I'm not sure if I'm the girl in your dreams
But I can show you what love means

One day you came and talked to me
And you said, "We are meant to be"
I was happy, everything was so nice
But then I found out that everything was a lie

Maybe I don't have the blonde hair you like
Or maybe I don't have eyes like the sky
And I'm not sure if I'm the girl in your dreams
But I can show you what love means

Na na na na, na na na na, yeaaaeaaah
Na na na na, na na na na

[BRIDGE]
How could you do this to me (do this to me)
You said we are meant to be (woooaoooa)
You showed me how to cry
When you told me that everything was a lie

Maybe I don't have the blonde hair you like
Or maybe I don't have eyes like the sky (eyes like the sky)
And I'm not sure if I'm the girl in your dreams
But I can show you what love means

Love meeeeaaaaans(I don't have have eyes like the sky)

yeaaaeaaah

I'm not the girl in your dreams

Love meeeeaaaans

Na na na na, na na na na, whooooaoooa
Na na na na, na na na na

Love meeeaaaans

someday. somehow.

2005-09-28T19:52:00.000+08:00

EOYs examinations are coming so soon. i need to start working hard! i know i said that 54024246 days ago. lalalala*

think i made lileen angry today. even though i dunno what's wrong but SORRY GIRL! :)) love.

went to study with lileen, eileen and kangjie today. rayson and bingchao came over. bingchao SO FUNNY! and there was this REALLY HANDSOME guy. haha. been ages since i gone so crazy over cute guys. i shouldn't be shallow but he was really attractive to me lah. heh. =D

I LOVE MY MUM. =D ERM AND DAD. heh.

jason is such a great friend! thanks ah. *BIG HUG*

i've been failing my tests but i'll work hard!
sorry girls i'm ALWAYS late. i will REALLY REALLY REALLY change this time k!! for BOTH OF YOU! wahahah : )) LOVE.

nites all. muaacckks.

it will never be the same again but
I WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY :))
i'll be happy too! lalalala*
always the silly girl.

FAITH*

2005-09-26T22:34:00.000+08:00

i'm so gonna flunk chemistry. maybe emaths too. tmr's amaths test and physics retest. I'M GOING TO STUDY! gonna sleep late tonight. : ))

i got 5 and a half OUT OF 30. for physics test. ~~i am so stupid!~~ okay i'm not complaining. i'll work doublely [ doesn't look correct but nvm ] HARD! : ))

exams are coming so soon. i need to be hardworking!

aunt emily came today. not sure why i'm feeling scared. i hope i can complete the whole thing succesfully.
i need alot of motivation and commitment. i know i can do it! FAITH*
thanks jason! *GRINS*

nites all. LOVE. : ))

i'm lazy.

2005-09-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

I'M FEELING LAZY YET AGAIN. shucks. i have two tests [ my weakest subjects. emaths and chemistry ] tmr and i haven studied! i think i can go die already.

MOTIVATE ME LAH SOMEBODY. rahhhhhhhh.~~i think~~ i'll wake up early to study tmr morning. i know i'm procrasinating again.

to kangjie: haha dunno why i can't tag at your tagboard. specially for uncute pple is it? no wonder eileen can tag. haha.
cheer up alrights! : )) i know how it feels like but let things go naturally and there will defintely be people who care! learn to appreciate what you have right now and not think of what you don't have! happiness is a choice. lalala*

church was good today. jiayu was mad lah. i mean she's always mad. hahaha. then we started talking about pri school stuff. and then she was complaining that i snatched samuel from her. wahaha. super childish but fun lah. : )) love ya! shirleen, wenhui, liyun and leila too!
anyways, pastor kong talked about faith and i learnt alot of things! (:

*If God can bring money through you, he can bring money to you.
-when you give to others, God is actually giving through you. so be generous.

*The power of God travels through faith. by:
1) the words you say.
2) the attitude (faith) you hold.
3) the songs you sing.

*God doesn't play games with YOUR LIFE.
-when you encounter failures along the way, God is just giving you challenges and bringing you to a higher level each time. He has something better for you. God has a purpose for your life.

*God may not be early, but He's never late.
-when you are at your lowest, you might probably be asking, why isn't God doing anything?
He will but it's just not time yet. be patient. have faith.

*Christianity is NOT just a religion, it is our relationship with God.

i might sound like i'm preaching but i think it's pretty meaningful. :)) alright. nites all. LOVE.

oh yah. EH WHY YOU ALL READ MY BLOG NEVER TAG! xD. tag me lah.

fun day. cherishing my life.

2005-09-24T21:28:00.000+08:00

didn't study much but i had alot of fun today. went to study with lileen and eileen. derrick, jicai and ivan joined us after that. couldn't really get a place to study so went to derrick's house. then lipmeng joined us.the guys are SO FUNNY! i laughed alot lah. : )) so happy i got to know the group of them! they brought so much laughter into my life.

after that went with the girls but dinner but i didn't eat. we talked for nearly 2 hours! about the past, relationships and people. i really enjoyed it. first time the three of us really sat down and have our own girls' talk for so long! thanks for everything. love ya both!

my dad's sick again! pray he get well soon. don wan him go hospital again!

i love my life and more importantly the people in my life! i've learnt to cherish them more now. i want everyone to be happy!
read -being a happy teenager- by andrew matthews. great book. i learnt alot of it. get it if you can! or can borrow frm me. : ))

I'M A HAPPY GIRL*
i wanna always be your silly girl.
i'll be there for you! : ))

i want you to be happy.

2005-09-23T22:33:00.000+08:00

it's been a busy week! lots of tests and revision to do. EXAM'S IN A WEEK'S TIME! work hard everyone. =D

lots of things happened lah. both good and bad. some stuff are just too personal alr.

mr choh's definitely having a bad time in our school. practically 3/4 of our class dislikes him.
he might be a lil unreasonable and he can't teach well.
but look at the way our class is behaving. and you people blame him for it? if all of us just shut up and NOT interrupt him during lessons,things would have been much better.
you might not agree with me but at least give him the due respect he should get. even if you don't respect him as a teacher, HELLO?! he's just a weak old man. and you SCREAM and INSULT him in his face?
he has done his part as a teacher. maybe it's time for all of us to do what we students ought to do. i might sound harsh but i just feel this is getting too much.

anyways, i still had a great week. :)) i'm the happy girl remember? =D

lileen and eileen * so happy to have you girls in my life. LOVE :))

i love my class girls. not forgetting JESSICA! thanks for bringing so much fun and laughter.

i'm feeling lazy to blog. *HUGS AND KISSIES* :D

happy and contented. :)
praisethelord.

(:

2005-09-20T23:55:00.000+08:00

just woke up from a long long nap. went to study with the girls again today. : )) been studying practically every single day after school unless we have crt.
but i think i'm still putting enough effort and not studying hard enough!

dad's home. he looks bored staying at home. hahaha. he has to rest for 10 days before he can go back to work!

yt is sick! get well soon girl. hope she doesn't get dengue. suppose to go with lc to visit her but i lazy. thanks lc for listening to me and talking to me! : ))

i found and got all the stuff i lost! xiongwei found the whole stack of worksheets for me. eileen found my file and foolscape pad too. and rachel has an extra bio txt! i'm so lucky. thanks all! : ))

looking forward to chruch on sun! hope cheryl and mich can make it.

GD LUCK FOR UR EXAMS EVERYONE! study hard ah.

you* gave me the faith to come this far.

i think it's time to let go. i'll try! (:

still there. always there.

2005-09-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

today's long day! probably because i didn't get enough sleep and i'm feeling tired.

my dad's going to be discharged tmr! (: lalalas* thanks everyone of you for asking!

i love god.
i love my mum.
i love my dad.
i love my bro and sis.
not forgetting them.
eileen, lileen, rayl, herman, jiasheng, houjun, yingtong, rachel, michelle, cheryl, rebecca, lifen, jiayu, shirleen, haziq, siti, prem, saran, yengjie, sinteck, jeremy, zul, jinxian, huijuan, sujun, xiongwei, eunice, janice, xiaowei, mabel, hazel, jason, darius, bingchao, leongcheng, ivan, jicai, derrick, charmaine, jessica, joey, xiao kenneth, weian, corina, denny, jonathan and all of you for being around.

i miss ruth, weijie, gordon and the peeps!
LOVE YOU ALL TO BITS! (: *hugs and kissies*
life's been so happy and meaningful with all of you.

i was. i am. and i will be A HAPPY GIRL. =D

nites all!

happy mooncake festival.

2005-09-18T21:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL! =D

chruch service was great today! rev dr richard was our guest speaker. he's like so funny! jeff, jiayu and a few others had their healing testimony. yay! and my bro accepted christ too. even though i think he did it for the fun of it. heh. PRAISE THE LORD! met lots of new friends too. looking forward to cell grp next week!

after that went to the hospital. my dad's much better! he can walk already. then went home to sleep. i was tired. sorry eileen, lileen and rayl! didn't go rollerblade with you guys.

i'm such a kuku. i lost so many impt school stuff. maths papers [ including lileen and rach ]. sorry girls! lost my file and foolscape pad with stuff inside. i hope it's still in school.

dan just reminded me I HAVE PHYSICS TEST TMR. shucks. ahh. no sleep tonight!
I THINK I AM BECOMING SENILE. I PRACTICALLY FORGET EVERY SINGLE THING.

i think i forgot to mention about meeting up with my pri sch mates at punggol park on friday! had so much fun. phyliscia, phylis, peirong, cindy, weiwen and desmond! love them all! (:

nites all. i NEED to study. god bless. : ))

i can't get to slp.

2005-09-17T23:29:00.000+08:00

i can't get to sleep. no idea why. just read my past entries. so much memories. haha. i miss hanging out with the 1e2 clique! i miss so many things.
i think i've changed so much. for the better of course. :D heh.
i'm much a happier girl but because of the changes in my life, my brain's getting a tad too active. I THINK TOO MUCH. WAY TOO MUCH. it's so tough to feel carefree and have no worries.
i think i miss darius.

i'm thankful for many things in my life even though it's never enough. love you all to bits. : ))

love.

2005-09-17T22:41:00.000+08:00

i am so in love with this drama series. WATCH IT OKAY! every monday and tuesday. 7pm on channel 8. (:
it's so sweet.

ah i'm feeling so lifeless. don feel like studying or doing anything else. i hate having pms.
logged in to irc for the first time since 5457457 days ago. people there have no life. 70% of them are there for the sake of looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend.
hello?! i seriously don't want to have a girlfriend/boyfriend just for the sake of having one.

nvm. i'm fat lah but i got so undesirable meh? why no ~~handsome~~ guys like me?!
I'M MAD.
bah.
i'm cute.

I'M CUTE I'M CUTE I'M CUTE.

tired.

2005-09-15T22:42:00.000+08:00

OKAY. I HAVE DECIDED TO RE-BLOG. =D

my dad's not getting any better. his blood pressure dropped to FIFTEEN today. [ a normal person's blood pressure is more than 100 ] no appetite, vomit and headache lah. never seen him so weak before. let's hope he'll be fine. I LOVE MY DAD (:

maybe i should get dengue fever. this guy warding beside my dad lost TEN KGS in five days. wah instant jianfei man. STING ME MOSQUITOES. i'll put stagnant water all around my room and breed them. ahahahaha.
fine. joking.

WHAT'S WRONG WITH FRIENDSTER?! super messy right now. i wan the old one back!

it's tiring juggling studies, visiting the hospital and hanging out with my friends all at the same time! i don't even have time for myself. we have SO MUCH to study. ughhh.
sorry charmaine i couldn't make it today. i'll make sure i make it next week alrights! love ya girl.

i am starting to miss many things already. i wanna be loved and feel loved BY THE RIGHT PERSON. i feel so jealous when i see those sweet couples! but this gotta wait till the right nice guy comes along. lalalala*

i'll post some pictures up first. (:

ME AND THE MAD JIAYU.

LEILA! [ MY CELL GRP LEADER ] ME AND YOKEKUAN!

I LOVE THE GIRLS!

and again.

FIONA AND ME!

EVAN AND i-forgot-her-name-girl. heh.

me and the pretty ladyyy. ruiyi.

CELL N293! =D

alot more pictures frm the gathering to post up. will blog again. SOON. i hope. nites all (:
*HUGS AND KISSIES*

thanks all for coming to visit my blog. i don't know who you are but thanks! =D
LEAVE A TAG ALRIGHTS. love (:

i'll just pray.

2005-09-13T22:57:00.000+08:00

just came back from the hospital. my dad got admitted today. dengue fever. no worries. he's fine so far (:
gonna be pretty busy with school work and visiting my dad for the week so i'll probably not blog.
DON LET MOSQUITOES BITE AH. drink lots of water. takecare all alrights!

EXAMS ARE COMING SO HIT YOUR BOOKS AND STUDY HARD TOO!
muaccks. love ya all. nites (:

thanks jason ah. you always make me laugh. A CUP BOY. wahhaha.

pray.

2005-09-11T23:36:00.000+08:00

just got back frm the clinic. SEVENTY-ONE BUCKS LEH. my dad's down with high fever. he's shivering like siao like that. never seen him so sick before. my sis teared cuz she was scared. let's just pray he'll be alright.

i deleted of some links at the side. basically to make it look neater. and easier for me cuz those are the blogs i usually read. (:

CHECK MY MY ADOPTED DOG! scroll all the way down on the left box. YES IT'S NAME IS TIGGGER! it barks you know. (:

i HAVE NOT done MOST of my homework I THINK. ahh. nvm tmr then see xD.

nites all (: god bless.

`if god brings you to it, HE will bring you through it.*

lalalala.

2005-09-11T19:39:00.000+08:00

i just woke up frm a ~~god~~-knows-how-many-hours of sleep. i'm still in the drowsy and sleeping state right how.

took evan's van (rhymes huh?) to ~~chruch~~CHURCH with leila and mich today. met alot of new pple again! (: it was fun lah. JIAYU AND SHERLYN ARE SO MAD!!!! hahaha.

shucks. school reopens TOMORROW. i wasted my one whole week. i hardly studied.
i'm gonna be a hardworking girl frm tmr onwards!

i'm feeling lazy to blog alr. meeting jiayu for some salvation thing tmr. nites all! have a blessed week at school alrights! (:

my bro is coming with me to chruch next week!
JESUS LOVES YOU. =D

all about you*

2005-09-10T21:13:00.000+08:00

3E2 PLS DO YOUR ENGLISH ONLINE EDULEARN ASSIGNMENT BY TMR. apparently our dear ~~very~~ extremely senile mr choh forgot to inform us about it. it's counted in CA MARKS so pls today it okay. mr marvin lim asked me to tell as many pple as possible so ya.

and stop asking me STUPID questions! my msn nick was

zining*// 11+ 3e2, pls do ur eduLEARN assignment by tmr- mr malvin lim. (mrchohforgottotellus)

- and pple started asking me questions like:
`your msn nick, serious ah?
`when must hand up ah?
`who say one?

USE YOUR DAMN BRAIN.

anyways thanks kaisen for helping me submit the assignment! tt kuku thing screwed up lah so my As became Cs and my Bs became Ds. shucks. and i got 2/15. forget it (:

my face is like so burnt and peeeellly [ if u get what i mean ]. ugh.

i'm looking forward to chruch tmr! love (:
nites all.

ALL ABOUT YOU*

Hear our praises,
Hear Your people sing
Hear our hearts cry,
Your love is everything

And all will hear this sound
As the nations turn to You
And this will be our anthem

Cause we're all about You
And the world You promised
And all we have will give you praise
Cause we're all about You
And the world can't stop us
Living Your Way
Always

Let our hearts break,
As we praise your name
Let the earth shake,
This is the sound of faith

And all will hear this sound
As the nations turn to You
And this will be our anthem

Cause we're all about You
And the world You promised
And all we have will give you praise
Cause we're all about You
And the world can't stop us
Living Your Way
Always

And the walls will fall down
and religion will break
And the nations will hear this shout
Can you hear the sound of faith?

Cause we're all about You
Cause we're all about You
(4x)

Cause we're all about You
And the world You promised
And all we have will give you praise
Cause we're all about You
And the world can't stop us
Living Your Way
Always

Cause we're all about You
Cause we're all about You
(4x)

And all the walls are falling down
As all the nations praise
And all the world will hear this shout
Can you hear the sound of faith?
(2x)

THANKS EVERYONE. (:

2005-09-10T00:18:00.000+08:00

it's a long and tiring day. i'm drained cuz i just got home not long ago. heh. I HAD LOTS OF FUN TODAY. i have to blog because i have so many people to thank and to apologize to.

to EVERY EVERY EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU who turned up for the gathering today. A MILLION THANKS. especially for those who stayed for the games. (: thanks for just being there and participating in the games.you guys just made me feel all the planning, money and everything was worth it.

to those who left earlier. i'm really sorry you guys didn't get to enjoy the gathering. and i apologize for my quite-last-minute and messy-whole-thing. i would every much like to return you pple the five dollars but i overshot my budget. for this, i would like to again say, SORRY.

to the people who forked out extra money to help me. thanks alot. i would probably have nothing to answer to my dad if you guys hadn't help. i know alot alot of you gave up as much as you could to help. i really appreciate it. (:

and now my special thanks to these people.
bingchao, xiongwei & rayson for going with me all the way to amk to collect the food. (:
jicai & derrick for helping out and bringing this whole gathering so much more fun and laughter. without you guys it would sure have been boring.
eileen & lileen for helping me collect money frm the pple, planning the games with me and helping out during the whole gathering! love u girls (:
herman, haziq, sikai, jiasheng for helping me clear up the super-messy-with-water-all-over room.
herman for helping me book the function room and thanks so much for always been there to help. best friends forever kays. love. (:

others who helped and i didn't mention. i'm sorry. too tired to function my brain. xD THANKS ALL (:

-

now for ~~everything~~the-short-cut-version-of-everything that happened today.

went for badminton in the morning with herman, jiasheng and bingchao. IT WAS SO SO FUNNEEEEEHH. love u all! herman and me make the best partners. lalalala*

after that was the party! it's was fun. basically the forfeit parts. everyone just enjoyed see-ing people like ME *stares at jicai and derrick and the whole row of assholes who listened to them*
get SABO-ED. they wrapped me up in masking tape mind you. don worry, i have pictures for more understanding.

ME AND BINGCHAO AFTER BADMINTON!!

ON OUR WAY TO COLLECT THE FOOD. ME AND RAYSON.

AND AGAIN.

XIONGWEI IS MAD.

ME AND BING CHAO AGAIN! (:
-
THE FORFEITS =DDD

POOR SHERILYN AND IVAN. THEY HAD TO BITE A PIECE OF PRINGLES TOGETHER. THEY ARE LIKE SO SHY! WAHAHA.

OH MY POOR SITI GIRL HAD TO EAT MARSHMELLOWS WITH WASABI. heh. i very mean ah. I MADE FAIZ EAT IT WITH HER xD

THIS IS THE KHOO KHOO. LILEEN!!! xD LALALA. SHE GOT SPLASHED WITH WATER.

OH POOR FAIZ. LILEEN DERRICK RAYL SITI AND JICAI POURING WATER ON HIM.

I'M COOL, COLD AND STILL HAPPY!

PICTURE OF THE YEAR!!!

I'VE NEVER BEEN THIS HIDEOUS.

KUKU JICAI AND DERRICK WITH THEIR CREATION.

THEY GOT SABO-ED! MARSHMELLOWS WITH WASABI YOU KNOW!! EWW.

POOR DERRICK AND JICAI xD

AND ONE OF THE FORFEITS AS WELL! JICAI BITING ALEX'S EAR. HAHA.

THE BLOW BIGBIGBIG BALLOOON COMPETITION!! OUR WINNER. HAZIQ! HAHA.

THE FOUR MACHO MEN IN THE COMPETITION!

THEIR FORFEIT! TO BURST THE BALLOON LIKE THAT! HAHA.

OH THAT'S LIKE SO GAY. HAHA.
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that's basically all the pictures for today! MORE ON RAYL'S camera. i'll ask him to upload them soon!

after that went to eastcoast to blade with jicai, derrick, eileen, lileen, rayl, alex, junhui, anton and desmond. i had fun! sorry for my mood swings.
THANKS EILEEN AND RAYL for being there (:
THANKS JICAI AND DERRICK for trying to cheer me up!
i really really love hanging out with you guys. muaaaaackks. FRIENDS FOR LIFE!

AND AGAIN. THANKS EVERYONE. BLESS ALL (: I'M SO TIRED I CAN JUST FALL ASLEEP SITTING UPRIGHT. NITES!

EILEEN. I LOVE U TO BITS!! THANKS FOR EVERY SINGLE THING YOU'VE DONE FOR ME. MUAAAACKS.

praise the lord!

2005-09-08T22:38:00.000+08:00

those who are hesitating whether to go to the gathering tmr, COME LAH. it will be fun! xD i promise to be in my craziest mood tmr. wahahaha. LOVE YA ALL! (:

i'm tired of people asking me WHO'S GOING. so here's the list.
sinteck rachel yengjie sihui saran suyin weixiong samantha suzzane anton&gf zhiyi rayson bingchao faiz xiongwei zhihao nicholas eileen lileen alex rayl jiasheng sikai derrick jicai jeremy ivan sheena sherilyn siti jannatun razin haziq herman junhui&gf jiasheng haziq.
there might be more cuz there is still an unconfirmed list.

i hope there's enough food. the catering is 120 bucks. i promise there wouldn't be any extra money cuz the rest will be used for tidbits, drinks, plates and etc. if you really afraid that ur 5 bucks go dunno whr then ask me lah. (:

-

went for the service at city harvest today! (: PRAISE THE LORD! i've missed so many chances of accept jesus christ and i finally did it today. i almost teared. thanks to yokekuan for encouraging me and thanks jiayu but inviting me to this service
not forgetting yanping, my first cell grp leader. sorry because i wasn't ready at that time but you gave me alot of support. thanks alot. i really wanna meet u again soon!

and special thanks to cell N293 and cell leader leila! (: thanks for making me feel so welcomed. fiona, liwen, siewhui, shireen and ruiyi! see you guys again on sunday. love!

so happy to be back at chruch. i gonna bring eileen and lileen to church someday!

i have tons of pictures but it's in rayl's camera. HELP ME UPLOAD IT K SHUAIGE xD thanks a million!

badminton with herman jiasheng and bingchao tmr morn!
nites all! i'm tired, burning red STILL but i'm a happy girl tonight.

I LOVE JESUS. JESUS LOVES ME TOO. =D

super duper fun day! sentosa and janice's bbq.

2005-09-07T23:18:00.000+08:00

first thing.
the friday buffet at herman's function room. [ compass heights ] pls remember to bring 5 bucks ah. and meet at 2PM outside 7-11 @ compass point alrights. i invited alot of the sec 3s so if you wanna come along just gimme a call! (: SEE YOU GUYS OKAY! i'll call and remind everyone again tmr.
IT'S A GATHERING BTW, not my birthday. (:

-

I HAD A SUPER DUPER FUN DAY TODAY. lalalala*

met up with jess, yingtong, houjun, mich and cheryl today. went to sentosa. had lots of fun! went swimming, playing vball, eating, slacking ard and tanning. I LOOK LIKE A RED LOBSTER NOW.
i'm lazy to elaborate lah. xD so ...
PICTURES! (:

ON OUR WAY TO SENTOSA. (: ME AND YINGTONG.

SIAO AH. LIKE THAT ALSO NICE TO SEE. xD

AUNTY AND YINGTONG.

ON THE BUS. YINGTONG AND ME!

MICH AND ME!

YT AND JESS.

AND AGAIN.

RETARDS.

AUNTY AND ME!

AFTER SWIMMING AND HAVING FUN IN THE WATER.

THE END! xD

not much pics cuz i forgot to bring rayl's digicam. heh.

-
after that went to JANICE's party! had alot of fun playing with water! hahaha. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANICE! lalalala.

THE BIRTHDAY GIRL!

huijuan and me.

me and janice. her face. er i dunno why xD

nites all. i'm tired. muaaaaaacks. (:
i hope the redness goes away. i wanna go to city harvest tmr!

i'm bored.

2005-09-07T01:12:00.000+08:00

JASON ROCKS JASON ROCKS JASON ROCKS!
I'M BORED LAH.

I'M SUCH A LAZY ASS.

beaching with my vball girls tmr. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANICE.

AH I'M MAD.

ALEX AND EILEEN ARE TOGETHER! xD

MUAAAAAAAKCKS. <3 ALL.

suntec. bugis. with mum.

2005-09-06T00:04:00.000+08:00

went to suntec convention hall for the food fair with my mum today. kinda boring lah. nth much i find nice to eat also. after that went to bugis to shop.
i did a pedicure. now i've got weird-purple-looking nails! ugh. forget it. haha.

i'm kinda tired.
my adorable sister.

lalala.

*awwwwwwww

i love this picture! i bet she'll grow up to be a babe.

i love my mum and sis. (: muaaaaacks.

nites all.

weijian rocks!

2005-09-05T01:33:00.000+08:00

i'm so in love with derrick ho weijian again. his voice is just so nice. listening to his songs over and over again. weijian is MINE. all MINE. (: kay lah. half give lileen. xD

told you i've got moodswings. i'm happy already. heh.
was looking at eileen and alex's msn nick. so sweet both of them. keep playing around.
it makes me feel so happy for eileen because she's happily in love again! (:
hope everything will stay like that.

i'm msging darius now and i'm happy! xD
nites all (:

I LOVE MY MAD GIRLS! CHINCHIN AND ~~KHOOKHOO~~LAILUM! heh. nuaaaaacks. (:

mood swings.

2005-09-04T22:37:00.000+08:00

i've been really moody lately. basically there isn't anything for me to feel happy about. i hope i'll be fine after a while.
thanks eileen, lileen, jicai, derrick, ivan, rayl, zhiyi, kaisen, glenn, weian, dan and corina for caring and making me smile! (:

i've no idea why andrew wants to do that. avoid me and stuff. just for the sake of getting a free mp3? some people are just like that.

mum's nagging non-stop about everything single thing. maybe it's her pms.

stupid bingchao. he sent me this damn gross video clip on some cult, terrorist or whatever lah. cutting this hostage's head off using the knife. then you can see all the blood splashing out and stuff. damn disgusting. ugh.

with 6'9 02. (: at aps.

nites all. muacks (:

i wanna be a happy person.

- imissthosetimes. thanks for all the moments.
end of the fairytale. life's a play. it's unrehearsed.

2005-09-03T22:55:00.000+08:00

i forget to add something. THANKS EILEEN FOR ALL UR ENCOURAGEMENTS AND MESSAGE THIS MORNING. LOVE U TO PIECES. MUAAACKS.

lalalaa.

2005-09-03T22:08:00.000+08:00

hello ALL ! (: thanks for all the tags. i'm fine and jumping already.

went to meet eileen, rayl, lileen, jicai, derrick and ivan today. talked and slack ard at burger king then went to hougang with rayl to make his ezlink.

went to andrew's place just now. i DIDN'T get my mp3 back lah. haha. either he didn't want to open the door or he's really not home. thanks rayl! (:

my internet connection just came back. it screwed up this morning. hahaha. i wanna play bejeweled already. nites all. muacccccks.

PICTURES(:

the school uncle. HE VERY HARDWORKING ONE K. pple go home he still wiping table.

houjun and me!

cheryl and me!

lifen and me!

NOW FOR THE UGLY PICTURES OF EILEEN AND ME.

heh.

how retarded we get.

our fingers.

I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M POSTING THIS UP. BUT NVM.

THE CUTIES OF THE CENTURY.

i don't wanna feel that way anymore.

2005-09-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling far-too-fat again. tired of TRYING. tired of FEELING FAT. tired of BEING FAT. it sucks. now i know why people fall into depression or get aneroxic/bulimic.

and the usual things people say. exercise more. eat less. sounds easy but it's tough. so tough i rather be anorexic. i just don have the determination, the drive to lose weight even though i BADLY want to. and there are sacrifices i have to make to my lifestyle which is holding me back on going further.

had a long talk with aunt emilie just now. she was really encouraging. she made me really think about my life. and whether i'm REALLY happy with myself. thanks alot.
how are you suppose to be really happy with life when you are not even happy with yourself?
mum was trying to supportive but she doesn't really understand. i need real support from friends and my family. but people do things to only a certain extend because they are not in my shoes and they are not me.

i've so much inside me i wanna just vent them out but i feel it's far too private. but trust me, it really feels sucky. i'm feeling so lost, so inferior, so everything.

i'm don't want to be aneroxic one day just because i have ran out of choices and people to turn to.

you might feel i'm just bullshitting lah and you will probably be thinking why am i making a big fuss out of a small matter.
because, you are not me and you don't feel what i'm going through.
i am trying and i'll still keep on trying.
i think i need some time for myself to cool down and think.

thanks eileen and lileen. you girls always tried to help. love (:
sorry lileen i'm not going with you tmr. takecare alrights.

nites all (:
i'm not even sure why i'm typing all these but i decided to post it anyway. maybe i'm just not in the right state of mind.

weilian won!

2005-09-01T22:59:00.000+08:00

watched superstar. weilian won! hmmmm, kinda disappointed lah. kelly's really good and PRETTY. haha. nvm.

went out with eileen, lileen, rayl, derrick, alex and jicai. met alot of pple! herman, saran, prem, suyin, sheena, ms chua, jiasheng and alot of them.
watched red eye. NICE MOVIE! it's really thrilling lah. haha. kinda freaked me out for that hour or so. anyways, i had alot of fun. went to arcade, walk around and bullshit as usual. LOVE THEM ALL! (:
i'm so broke.*highlights and hints* i owe alot of pple money lah. but i bought my charles and keith shoes again! i wanted them badly. heh (:

lots of pictures again. trionometry emaths test tmr. i'm like so dead. nites all (: muaccks.

suyin me and rach. (:

my beloved brother! wahaha.

me and lileen.

RAYL SHUAI GE and me! wahah.

derrick and me.

the very FUNNY jicai and me!

eileen and me. orange specs!

alex and me.

ivan and me. like force him to take ah? haha.

hahah LOOK AT DERRICK!

THE ULTIMATE RETARDS.

EILEEN.

ME. hahahaha. i look retarded. don laugh ah.

alex and eileen! heheehehehe. (:

-
i'm fat lah. hahahaha. okay i'll TRY to slim down.

ugh. my mp3.

2005-08-31T21:49:00.000+08:00

i'm IRRITATED. ANNOYED. whatever lah.

if you call me a hundred times and i never fail to tell you that i'm busy. DON'T YOU fcking REALISE THAT I DON'T WANNA TALK TO YOU?! grr. i don't want to be mean lah but it's irritating.

i can't get andrew to get my mp3 back again lah. like the dunno how many times already. I WANT MY MP3 BACK. i guess he's probably trying to annoy me like that or whatever lah. cuz
1) he always doesn't pick up my calls.
2) he picks up my call, tells me he gonna return it to me blah blah when. then in the end i don't get my mp3 back.

i mean like even if you are really busy, at least make it a point to let me know when you are free instead of me calling all the time to PESTER you for my mp3 back.

mark's attitude sucks lah. if i'm helping you do something it's fine if you don't say thank you lah. but can't you at least be a lil more polite?!
show me more of your fcuked up attitude tmr and i'll show you mine.

WHATEVER LAH.

don irk me anymore. i'll scream i tell you.

teachers' day!

2005-08-31T19:47:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS A HAPPY DAY. LOTS TO BLOG AND TONS OF PICTURES!
i got a new keyboard! lalalalalala. i spilt water on my old one lah and it spoilt ytd.

yesterday was quite interesting. LILEEN and EILEEN are prefects NOMORE. i really like lileen's sisters. haha. then went to compass to write cards for teachers. (: love the girls. i miss going out together. meet you guys tmr kays!

wanted to take nap before bloggin lah but then superstar starts at 8.30 so i might as well sleep after the show.
first thing.
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! (:

wrote to alot of the teachers. haha. i love mrs valerie wang! she's like a super nice teacher. it was quite fun lah. running about the school talking to teachers. heh. but the teachers' day concert was super boring lah. the theme was ARABIAN NIGHTS. like wth? haha nvm.

after that went back to anderson primary with rachel. haha. so fun! i finally got to see MRS TAN KENG CHIN after like 4 years! my gosh. i miss her sooooo much. she still looks as youthful as ever even though she old liao. and she remembered me! so happy. (: haha
but she was like " of course i remember you lah, give me all the nonsense. and your brother also another one. " -.-
hehe. she taught both of us. haha. but i still love her. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING MRS TAN! LOVE YOU TO BITS.

of course met up with 6.9 peeps. met up with mrs yeo too. it was quite funny talking to them all. stupid shengfeng. i owe you money ah?! keep kajiao-ing me. haha. LOVE YOU GUYS! hope to meet up soon again. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PREMNATH!
three years of best friends! thanks for all the fun, jokes and laughters kay. you kickass lah. love ya.

me and the birthday boy!

the cute us. wahhaha. love her!

love the clique of babes (: rebecca, aunty, rach, mich, lifen and cheryl.

the old old mr choh. HOHOHOHO.

siti and aunty.

saran and suyin!

me and xiongwei.

lileen and me.

me and eileen.

me with the retarded big ears leongcheng. wahahaha.

rach and me!

mrs florence yeo!

AND MY FAVOURITE MRS TAN KENG CHIN!!! (:

love u guys all. muaaaaacks.
EILEEN IS HOT.
EILEEN IS SEXY.
EILEEN IS PRETTY.
EILEEN IS ALEX'S.
xD. heh.

i got my answer.

2005-08-29T20:30:00.000+08:00

today wasn't a good start for the week. basically our day was screwed up by ~~teachers~~. erm maybe not.

eileen, lileen, alex, rayl, cheryl and YINGTONG. i'm really really sorry guys. all these shit wouldn't have happened if you guys didn't come for my debate on saturday.
esp yingtong, eileen and lileen. so sorry girls. i got you all into all these trouble.

mrs somu is just so fcuked up. i'm sorry but i don care anymore. doesn't she realise how much yingtong has done for the damn prefectorial board? all she knows is to use extremely harsh words and threatenings on us. i know you are trying to push us to get things done the right way but you don realise you are using the absolutely wrong method to let us understand all your nonsensical reasonings. we ain't your fcuking slaves. we need a life.
whatever. you are making me hate you already.

thanks mr reduan.
thanks mr malvin.

this incident made me feel bad. i almost teared in class. i just sat there, listening to the poor girl rant and cry. i feel so sorry yet i couldn't help. sigh. i just hope she wouldn't get into more shit. i can't tell you how much i wanna thank you and also say sorry. love you girl (:

rayl got caned too lah. that retard go talk back to teacher. but he's fine already.

thanks eileen. i got my answer and what i need to know. don worry cuz i am a strong girl (: hah. love ya.

tmr's amaths test. i need to mug today.
nites all. love (:

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

i miss you.

2005-08-28T22:09:00.000+08:00

practically wasted my entire sunday. slacking, sleeping, eating, chatting and watching tv.
I HAVEN STARTED ON ANY OF MY HOMEWORKs.
i'm sucha lazy bum.

i just can't sit home and do nothing. my brain cells will start functioning rapidly and i'll start thinking about EVERYTHING. i love my life yet i hate it.

i really love my friends and family lah. without them, i probably wouldn't be this happy, crazy and mad child you guys see. LOVE YOU GUYS! (:

not exactly looking forward to school tmr. i just don't feel like studying. grrrr.

"Hope for the best, expect the worst. Life is a play. We're unrehearsed."
"We come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfect."

i'm sick.

2005-08-28T12:54:00.000+08:00

i shouldn't be at home! but i'm sick. lost my voice and i have flu. sigh. so just slept in the whole morning.
i think i was too busy with the debate i didn't get enough sleep for the week.

i have so much stuff not done!
-homework
-call up people for class bbq
-study for amaths
-book the bbq pit
-study for chemistry
-pack up debate stuff
-homework
-study lah

i'm feeling lazy. might go blading with siti ltr. (:

thanks all.

2005-08-27T21:50:00.000+08:00

we lost the debate. i thought we could have got it but it's okay. we tried our best. i was the second speaker and i was kinda nervous at first i got back on track.
st nics was superb. their speakers are like damn trained. nanchiau screwed it all up during the finals lah. i mean like it was damn crap loh. heh. okay fullstop. i shan't be mean.

and now i have so many people to thank.

MR MALVIN LIM. thanks so much. heh. for buying stuff and paying for my cab fare home today. hehehe. also, thanks for always trying to make time even though you are stressed up with school stuff, baby malcom and ur family to be busy with. thanks for always trying to make an effort. you are a great teacher. really. i respect you so much.

HAMZAH. thanks for staying up so late to help us ytd night. he slept at 2 okay! thanks for always making so much effort and being so patient with us. i know we always sidetrack and then lose focus. heh. you are such a nice guy.

MARK. thanks for always trying to encourage us, pushing us to do better. thanks for making an effort to compromise certain issues just for us. you were talking about how good we were today. all the praises defintely felt good. thanks.

LYDIA. GLENDA. CHRISTOPHER. HAMIDAH. thanks for always compromising and trying to help. it's been great working with you guys even tho we all have our mood swings at times. i know everyone of us put in alot of effort. it really doesn't matter we won or lost. at least we learnt so much from it right? (:

EILEEN. LILEEN. JICAI. IVAN. YINGTONG. CHERYL. RAYL. ALEX.
first thing, really sorry i got you guys into shit with the teachers. i rather you guys not come if i knew that this would happen. sorry. thanks alot for coming to support. so touched (: love you guys.

HERMAN. SIKAI. CHARMAINE. JIAQI. FIDELIS. IRIS. ZHIYI. YEONGCHIN. PEIYI. THE 1E3 GIRLS AND ALL THOSE WE CAME TODAY.
i know it's tiring to wake up so early in the morning. so thanks alot. love ya pple.

MRS GIBSON.
thanks for coming! you know i was super happy to see you around. i so love u. we all miss you in school. come back soon!

GLEN AND ANGIELICA.
thanks for everything. it was wonderful meeting mark and hamzah with you pple. you guys from srjc just rock!

SITI. YENGJIE. XIONGWEI. HOUJUN. RACH. AND EVERYBODY WHO WISHED ME LUCK BUT COULDN'T MAKE IT.
thanks pple (: you just missed the cute me talking. whahaha. love (:

shit happens. today was a eventful day. so much stuff happened. i lost my charles and keith sandals i just bought with my adidas shoebag. sigh. i left it on the bus. who wanna sponsor me to get another one? i'm such a kuku.

anyways after the debate went to watch rayl's tournament at yishun. HE WON! congrats. hope he will win his next round too! was with derrick, jicai, eileen, lileen, alex and ivan.

after that went to compass. bought dinner and sat down somewhr. ivan and alex went home earlier. than we started to talk about life, school and all. haven talked this much for so long! then the guys walked us to the busstop lah. it was really really fun! JICAI AND DERRICK ARE SO FUNNNNNNNNNEHHHH. enjoyed the day. love ya all!

EILEEN LOVE ALEX. AND ALEX LOVE EILEEN LAH. xD
whahaha.

i'm so tired basically it's just my mind thinking with just enough strength to type. haven had a proper sleep for super long. gonna slp soon. nites all. love. (:

it's not somebody's choice if he/she falls in love with other person. and since you pple can't control it why not just let it go and let the two persons be happy instead of everybody being unhappy?
THINK.
don be selfish.

-
so near yet so far. the fairytale ends here.

debate tmr!

2005-08-26T23:03:00.000+08:00

the debate's tmr! pray we'll do well okay. (:

thanks everyone for ur good lucks and also for coming to support. don feel bad if you can't make it is okay. still, thanks alot alot. i really appreciate it k.
love you guys! (:

siti, it's alright girl. no worries. (: love ya.

good luck rayl. i promise i'll try to go down tmr after e debate okay!

cheer up eileen. go with ur heart. have faith. love ya.

blog again tmr. nites all.

-

soon everything will fade away.

rahh.

2005-08-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

i don't wanna just walk away like that but you don't realise what i really want.

i'm tired.

-

eileen. i need to vent my stress! i'm tired of so many things. this week's a bad week.

life's just like that.

2005-08-24T21:46:00.000+08:00

debate was OKAY today. everybody wasn't really quite in the mood. cheer up lydia and mark! (: i think we really haven got enough time already. hope we get things done as soon as possible.

somebody's a jerk. i can't believe i actually trusted you. for a moment i felt like a dumbass. grrrrrrr. i shan't mention names but it seriously turns me off.

i've got new husbands! saran and i had babies. they are called ice and kachang. and i have an affair with zul. our babies are called kachang and puteh. i think i'm crazy lah. hahahaha.
i love my class! (:

i miss having fun and hanging out with muh girls so much. i love the leens! (:

i'm feeling super lazy to blog already. nites all!

i miss you*

sigh.

2005-08-23T23:01:00.000+08:00

i hate myself lah. i screwed up during debate practice today. sigh. i'm so sorry!
sorry hamidah, lydia for practically ruining our whole motion cuz i didn't mention a couple of things.
sorry hamzah and mark cuz i know you guys were trying hard to like help and calm me down but i just wasn't concentrating enough.

i was really feeling bad about it that i almost teared.

talked alot to hamzah on the way back. he's a really really really nice guy. thanks for everything! i promise not to disappoint you on thursday and i'll do my best k! (:

thanks rongli for treating us today!

history test tmr. i'm tired. i seriously don feel like studying. sigh.
nites all.

-i wished you could just be there to listen, but you weren't. you just don't know.

pictures.

2005-08-21T23:58:00.000+08:00

PICTURES! i promised (: even tho it's a lil late already. heh.
will try to scan the neos we took asap k.

me and my mad girl. love ya.

the three kukus.

rayl is super zilian lah. keep taking pictures with my phone.

zhiyi and eileen.

eileen and retarded alex.

and us again (:

the two retards lah.

kwangli and eileen. we met her on the way back!

kwangli and zhiyi.

alex, my feet in the middle and eileen. THE CRAZYS.

rayl and me (:

zhiyi and me.

MY FAVOURITE PICTURE WITH THE MAD GIRL! =D

i miss you. i really miss you.

2005-08-21T22:11:00.000+08:00

i never in a million years thought i would call 999 to report somebody attempting to commit suicide.
but, i just did.

a young girl opposite my block was sitting on the ledge outside her window on the NINTH FLOOR.
hello?! if you are sitting on the second floor i wouldn't care less. but it's on the NINTH FLOOR.
for god's sake, you might not die but you would definitely break both of your legs if you just jump down.
anyways, SHE SCARED THE HELL OUT OF ME.

i panicked and called the police. i was practically sweating even though i am just standing not moving. i was super afraid that she would drop down and -piak- any moment.
soon enough, paramedics, firemen and the police arrived. [ siao ah one person jump must more then twenty pple come?! ]
anyways she was fine lah. the police called and thanked me. (: she apparently was alone at home and has some relationship problems.
LUCKILY SHE DIDN'T JUMP BECAUSE IF SHE DID, I WOULD PROBABLY HAVE FAINTED.

so, i saved somebody!
and once again, the powerpuff ~~girls~~ girl saved the day =D
okay i'm mad.

and my sister was the one who saw the girl so must thank her also lah. (: i love my sis! muaaaaaaccckkss.

i just realised i haven done any work today. shucks. nites all (:

lalala.

2005-08-21T16:30:00.000+08:00

i feel like blogging because i have got so much things running through my head.
i'm sad. things between me and darius are going not too well. it's isn't that bad but i could feel the drift between us. i'm afraid things would end just silently. maybe somethings just don't have to be said and maybe he just wants us to stay as friends.
i wish a million times he would read this but he won't. i think i really like you already.

thanks jason for everything! heh. ASS. (:

WE GOT TO THE SEMI-FINALS!

2005-08-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

guess what? WE MADE IT TO THE SEMI-FINALS FOR THE DEBATE COMPETITION! (:(:(:
it was really surprising and we were all like wow because only four schools got in.
i'm so happy and proud of ourselves. at least we didn't waste the effort and time on the preparations. (: thanks mr melvin so much! we love you!
the rankings were st nicholas girls followed by nanchiau, northvista and xinmin.

next weeks' debate is impromtu so we'll only know it one hour before the debate. kinda tough but we'll try our best. i won't screw up and get nervous! (:

met alot of interesting pple alot the way, including cute and handsome judges. heh. our usher angelica and not forgetting the vice head prefect of srjc HAMZAH! really need to thank him so much for agreeing to help us with our coming debate. (: had a long talk with him on the way back the bus just now ( he lives near me). i must say he's really knowlegable and defintely a great debater!

went to town with zhiyi to watch bewitched.
it was an okay show lah. kinda boring. nicole kidman is like so cute in the show! (:

after that we met eileen, rayl and alex. took neoprints, talk crap and just hanged around lah. hah. quite fun. ALEX IS STUPID!

i'm lazy to blog alr. pictures and updates tmr!
gonna be busy for the whole week from monday. (:
love ya all!

you don't seem to really care anymore, or is it just me?

LONG ENTRY**

2005-08-19T20:51:00.000+08:00

WARNING! *** super long entry.

yoooooohhhhooo. finally feeling like i can breathe normally already. WE COMPLETED OUR DEBATE PREPARATIONS!!! almost. abit more or rebutal questions and touch ups here and there. (:

today was pretty hectic. went with yingtong after school to amk then we rushed back on a cab for prefects' phototaking. talked alot and we debated alot. hahahaha. she's crazy but i love her! (: and oh. lc and her patched! lc is like so sweet. i read their LOVE LETTERS. like tell me how many guys still write love letters these days loh. awwwww.

anyways she got scolded by mrs somu lah. for being late but because she was an exco member so got the shit. mrs somu thinks she's forever right. and you see her scolding somebody practically EVERY MOMENT.
it's either she's trying hard to get high blood pressure or she's nuts. i think she's nuts.
doesn't she realise how far AMK is from our damn school? and she's like asking her to skip her entreperneur thingo to make sure she comes on time for the phototaking. She was the one who said we should put our piorities first.
she just so egoistic and unreasonable because she wants everything to GO HER WAY.
mrs somu say = correct.
so much shit i wanna say about her but i guess it's enough for now.
getting teachers like her; just our luck. like what SHE always says, TOO BAD. (:

went to mr melvin lim's place today to complete our project. he was pretty stressed up too. long day and he still got to handle his extremely naughty and always-like-to-pee dog. besides that he has the cute baby malcom to look after. anyways lydia and me spent like an hour getting all engrossed in playing with malcom and dunno wat -mian- name [ the dog ].
baby malcom is like so cute!! babies just get fasinated super easily. i just had to put my face closer and he laughs so happily like i've given him 10 lolipops to eat.
and yup we got back to our work. after hours of writing and doing debating after debating. we all got tired but we managed to wrap everything up.

THANKS MR MELVIN! (: hamdah, glen, chris and lydia too! we'll try our best tmr k!

siti, xiongwei, bingchao, jinxian and alot of the npcc pple went for the atc camp. hope you guys have fun there! love (:

haven been hanging out with lileen and eileen much this week. miss you girls! been ard with jicai, ivan and derrick quite often lately. they are really ~~funny.~~ crappy.

tmr's the debate already. let's hope i don't screw up okay. wish me luck!

i miss having fun. anyways thanks haziq. here's ur hug! *GIVES HAZIQ A GIGANTIC HUG AND SMILES* (:

i know i owe millions of you guys testimonials. SORRY! i'll tryta get it done soon when i am NOT THAT LAZY you know. heh.

kinda tired to type already. it's been a long time since i blogged this long. (: nites all. love.

something from friendster and some really meaningful quotes from jasmine's blog.

# 3 - THE LIFE OF THE PARTY
3's are idealists. They are very creative,
social,charming, romantic, and easygoing. They
start many things, but don't always see them
through. They like others to be happy and go to
great lengths to achieve it. They are very popular
and idealistic.

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Happiness lives for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

if you actually bothered to read until here [ or you just simply scrolled all the way down ], you did you right thing. because i have pictures of baby malcom! (:

i'm cute ah!

heehee.

why are you holding me??

omg. come so near for what?

you monster again!

the very mischevious dog. he hardly keeps still so this is a precious shot k! haha.

i don look exactly nice in this picture but i love saran! (:

lydia and me. PPLE VICE HEAD PREFECT LEH. haha.

nites all! love (:

debates.

2005-08-18T22:48:00.000+08:00

i'm like so drained. mentally and physically.
it sucks trying to prepare for a debate when it's two days away and we have to get things done by tmr.

so much work to be done and the end of years are coming in two months time.
tests and more tests next week.
i'm so frustrated and tired.

thanks zeek.

nites all (:

i hope not.

2005-08-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

i've been really CRAZY in class these days. yaking non-stop every lesson. esp history! hahaha. when i'm sitting with siti, jeremy, sinteck, yengjie and nick.
i love my class. (:
i love herman and jiasheng too!

i think weiloon and me have been enemies since the previous lifetime. hahaha.

went for prefects' bonding and had alot of fun crapping to the sec 1s lah. then i told the teachers i got tuition xD went to compass with eileen and lileen then go home. heh. love ya both!

i really don't like thursdays. super long day.

so much things running through my head. it's either pms or just mood swings. it's something like the [ self-inferior ] period. when i start to think everything just isn't right and i just suck you know. i don't like this kinda of feeling. really.

i love dogs. <3

jason seems to always read my mind. thanks ah (:

nites all.

we believe.

2005-08-16T23:26:00.000+08:00

no idea why i'm getting so much shit from teachers lately. got caught by mrs somu for earstuds and not wearing tie. and then she bloody insisted that herman and me CANNOT go for the mount ophir trip! i wanted to go badly one leh. sigh. anyways she scold scold scold lah.
something along the lines of -not a good prefect. blah blah blah good example blah blah duties blah blah you don't know anything and blah blah blah. and something like i wanna sack you already. heh.

half our class got keep outside class for being late. practically all the girls. mdm seah is quite nice to me lah so i shan't complain. (:

i think i was super lame today during lessons. i played with magic wands [ highlighters ] and i saved the world!! xD hahahaha. i love 3e2!

debate aft sch was cancelled today so went to ~~study~~ help jicai do his project and play around. sorry lah. i know i colour till very ugly xD
and for one thing, jicai is EXTREMELY humorous. today laugh till i bth. he's really really funny lah. was with rayl, eileen, lileen, derrick, ivan, jicai and xingyuan.

we played a dare so who lose must get somebody to eat some rubbish [ a mixture of minced meat noodles and omelette fried rice ] heh. if that person don't eat you must eat. haha.
I LOST LAH. but ivan helped me eat! thanks thanks (:
lileen offered to eat lah but then somebody heart pain so volunteer to eat for her LOH. hahahahaha.

super tired alr. nites all (:
i'm so in love with dogs.

cycling.

2005-08-15T22:43:00.000+08:00

just went cycling with my sister. quite fun lah. haven cycled for very long alr. ended up playing with our neighbours' dogs downstairs. heh. i'm so in love with dogs.
SOMEBODY GET ME A PET DOG!!

siti: even tho you don complain to me about anything. i know it's tough facing all these problems. you've been so strong all these while. i know i'm not always there but if you just break down someday or if need me just give me a call and i'll be there. love you girl. always. (:

maybe it's my mood or something. i kinda argued with ziq. sorry dude. i didn't mean it. i just seriously hate it when you mention prefects are like sucky and i happen to be one of them. it's not like i had a choice and you know i'm not like them. (:

nites all.

lalala.

2005-08-15T18:39:00.000+08:00

i love mondays. firstly we hardly have any lessons because of p.e and assembly. pccg is like our talk-cock session.

i talked back to rene today and now she thinks i have an attitude problem. k lah. sorry. [ quite reluctantly ] heh. but who ask you so fierce scold me?! xD
she's quite nice lah just that sometimes she doesn't listen to my explanation before she reprimands me.

and oh. i got sabo-ed by some very-short-and-idiotic-shortie called RACHEL GOH RUO HAN. then suddenly the whole class started to -zining! zining! zining!- actually jenny lah but i don like that name. haha. go up stage do aces day workout. LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH. VERY FUNNY IS IT?!
haha ~~assholes~~ morons.

met up with lydia for debate thing then went home alr. (:

i finally ran today in the morn after many days of slacking. i need to start exercising more already!

might be going for the climbing trip to mount ophir end of the month! (:
and the thailand trip during nov too.
i wanna have fun!! (:

i don usually speak to strangers on msn lah. but then this guy said I LOOK LIKE JOANNE PEH LOH. *screams in awe* joanne peh leh. tell me i can become ms singapore universe.

i want my mp3 back lah but i still haven got it. -.-
takecare all (:

CHIN CHIN!!!! CHIN CHIN?!?!?!?! CHIN CHIN????? HELLO??!??!?! YOU THERE???!! xD
SI YUENTUCK. DON PEEK AH.
I WAN TO TELL MY CHIN CHIN SERCET ONE.
TELL U AR.

I VERY CUTE! shhhhhhh*

new pictures. blading!

2005-08-14T19:03:00.000+08:00

new pictures on my blogskin. (: changed it cuz xw say he looks ugly in one of e pics and also bcuz i have alot of new pictures. don't ask me why it's so big. i don't know.

went for the debate workshop at serangoon jc. alot of schools were there. the talk was okay. kinda complicated. haha. was with lydia, bell, christopher, hamidah and glenda. does this show that girls are good speakers? x)
anyways there was a friendly debate round against gan eng seng sec, it went okay but christopher screwed up cuz he was too nervous. hamidah did okay but lydia was good! gonna be busy preparing for the prelimanery [er forget how to spell] rounds next wk. wish me luck! (:

had alot of fun ytd! i love love love eileen and lileen! we laughed and talk so much. went ~~studying~~ playing arcade then go blading at east coast. spent alot of money on arcade. haha. then we went to bedok jetty and played with dogs. so fun! (:
then the stupid idiots at the shop bully me! actually they are very nice pple lah. just that they like to disturb me. haha. (:

this reminds me of a joke. ASK YOU ALL QUESTION!
a man was sitting under the tree.
one coconut and one durian drop down from the tree.
which one pain?

know answer one DON SAY AH! hahaha. i think it's very funny leh when lileen asked me. love u girls! muaaaaaacks.

and i am really really really starting to love dogs already.

went to help my dad today then come home sleep. heh was tired.
anyways i have pictures to post AGAIN! (:

in the process of mediatating. from far.

then closer. ABIT SIAO HUH??!?!?!

eileen and me.

lileen and me.

lileen and eileen.

the three of us!!

sometimes i wonder why i not called ZILEEN. then we can all be LEENS. but it's quite nanting. haha nvm.

takecare all! love (:

vball trg. i miss you.

2005-08-12T23:26:00.000+08:00

went for vball trg with chanel, phylis and pipi at kolam ayer cc. train with coach and his geylang methodist c boys. abit boring but still okay lah. then coach treat dinner at tampines! heh.

got punish by rene lim outside class. heh. a few of us cuz we talk. stupid nicholas. LAUGH AT ME! hahaha.

kinda lazy to blog alr. heh. nites all (:

lileen did this for me!! thanks girl. love ya.

me with EILEEN!! hahahaha. her stupid face!

i miss you*
it's tough trying to console somebody when you yourself need somebody to console.
i think i'm falling for you already. love (:

ugh!! derrick's out.

2005-08-12T00:15:00.000+08:00

UGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
HOW CAN YOU ALL KICK MY WEIJIAN OUT!!!!!
NOT FAIR LAH. WHY YOU ALL NEVER VOTE FOR HIM??
MY WEIJIAN LER!!
kljfdslkjflksjflkdsjflkslf;lkldjfslkncvmsdfkl *screams*

i'm so sad. watch the results till cry. weijian cried okay. aiye. sigh.
he's cute, still cute and will forever be cute!!
(: I LOVE WEIJIAN!!

now i sound like some crazy fan of his.
okay i am.

sliver is damn pretty but she's out too. why?!?!?!

so much work to be done and i haven done anything today! i'm such a lazy ass.

i love 3e2! thanks for ur support today during the debate! (: thanks prem, suyin, houjun, rach, nicholas, yengjie, zhenhui, saran and everybody! muaaaaacks.

thanks lileen for the gift and for spending so much effort. i really appreciate it. (: love you loads girl. best friends forever kay!

thanks cheryl for the chocolates today.
thanks yingtong for pei-ing me today.
love you both! (:

thanks darius! (: muaaaaaaacks.

nites all!

thanks jason!

2005-08-11T01:00:00.000+08:00

i gonna so fail chemistry tmr. I DON'T UNDERSTAND 1/2 OF THE TEST TOPICS.

thanks jason for trying so hard to teach me. i know i have extremely slow learning abilities. THANKS ALOT NANNY!!! (: so touched lah. you are such a great friend! love ya!! muaaaaaacks.

and for that i shall help promote you on my blog! wahhaha.

JASON NG!! (: xD
[ that one not his girlfriend hor ]
wan his number can get from me. 10 bucks a digit ah. hahaha.

nites all (:

lalala*

2005-08-10T19:00:00.000+08:00

i'm suddenly in love with the colour lime green. (:
met rayl, lileen, eileen, xiongwei at compass for studying but we ended up talking, laughing, playing arcade, eating, talking and laughing. heh. basically we didn't do any work lah. had alot of fun laughing! (: love ya all.

it's super sian when we've already rested for 5 days and then we have to go back to school again tmr.
the worst thing is.
I HAVE A CHEMISTRY TEST TMR. rahhhhhhh.
i'm feeling lazy.

i think friendster siao already. let me upload 50 pictures.

anyways was reading this blog which i think is very very funny! (: her singlish plus hokkien is super funny loh. hahaha.

i think i am getting some influence already. lor lah loh la.

i miss hanging out with siti suddenly. love ya girl! (:

looking forward to blading on saturday! (:

i love my dear! (: i know u'll always be there.

pictures uploaded!

2005-08-10T00:32:00.000+08:00

after like an hour of clicking and clicking and clicking, i finally uploaded most of my pictures!!! (:
pls take a look HERE
or scroll down the left side of my blog for -my photos -

siti and me!

see see. HEHEHEHE.

janice and me!

SIAO SI BOH??

anyways, was chatting with eileen just now.

eileen: that picture of the taxi you take one har????
me: no lah haha you take then you forget is it?
eileen: haha me meh??
eileen: no lah think not us.
me: this sort of pic maybe only rayl will take.
eileen: hahaha. ya hor
eileen: he always take pic of himself
eileen: he likes to take pictures of WEIRD THINGS
me: haha okay okay shh!! sercet!

HAHAHA. stupid! -

*while in the process of sending me pictures*
eileen: don have u de u wan?
eileen: wan my pretty face?
me: yup to the first question.
me: no to the second.
eileen: haha don care
eileen: sure got one
me: ><>

i am missing you.

2005-08-09T20:48:00.000+08:00

stayed home today. (: slacked around and watch tv. going to watch movie with leongcheng, yingtong, xiongwei & clique tmr ba.

actually i had alot of things to blog ytd but i was too tired.

heard about shenglong's incident and it was such a turn off. not pointing fingers at particularly anyone but it's just so childish. kicking and beating pple is fun huh? to think most of them were seconday four guys.

wilber pan wei bo is soooooooo shuai!! or did i mention it ytd already?
he was categorized into my list of -extremely cute guys- ytd. wahha. i'm pretty crazy over him atm.

i saw michelle on tv just now! (: our school's is in the combined choir this year. quite fun watching the whole parade.
i wanna go see the fireworks!! there's another show on 14 aug i think.

alex is super lame. i can't stand him.

HAPPY 40th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!
and derrick too!

i miss you*

me and lileen. (: at her place.

wilber pan wei bo - 不得不爱

天天都需要你爱
我的心思由你猜
I Love You
我就是要你让我每天都精彩
天天把它挂嘴边
到底什么是真爱
I Love You

到底有几分说得比想像更快
是我们感情丰富太慷慨
还是要上天安排
是我们本来就是那一半
还是舍不得太乖
是那一次约定了没有来
让我哭得像小孩
是我们急着证明我存在
还是不爱会发呆

Baby
不得不爱,不知快乐从何而来
不得不爱,放下悲伤从何而来
不得不爱,否则我就失去未来
好象什么尤其不能自己很失败
可是每天都过的精彩
天天都需要你爱
我的心只有你在
I Love You

我就是要你让我每天都精彩
天天把他挂嘴边
到底什么是真爱
I Love You

到底有几分说得比想像更快
会不会有一点无奈
会不会有一点太快
可是你给我的爱
让我养成了依赖
心中充满爱的节拍

天天都需要你爱
我的心随有你在
I Love You
我就是要你让我每天都精彩

wilber pan!

2005-08-09T00:20:00.000+08:00

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRLOOOO ALL (:

sorry for the quite short entries lately bcuz i have been busy and quite drained out lately! had alot of fun in school today. dancing ard with eileen and the girls.

went to wilber's concert at dxo. he's like EXTREMELY SHUAI CAN. really really really really shuai! and i got his autographed poster which he threw down. fell onto jinxian's and my hands lar but then she let me have it. THANKS ALOT GIRL!! love ya.

he looked at me! HE REALLY DID! STUPID NICHOLAS. hahahha.

was with jinxian, rayl, nicholas, denny, xiongwei and wencong. had dinner then went home alr.
pictures! (:

there's a reason why he's called - pan shuai -

lalalala*

the host. wu xu ma li.

rayl and me at dxo.

jinxian and me!

and again!

denny and me!

nites all. i'm tired alr.
imissyou! (:

festival of praise'05

2005-08-08T00:28:00.000+08:00

went to the marina carnival just now. stupid haziq. stop using the word RETARD on me! ASSHOLE. whahahaha. quite fun but it was very scorching. alot of our school pple were there lah. anyways, bingchao is just short lor. you are short!!! x) lalalala.

then we went to FESTIVAL OF PRAISE at indoor stadium!!! i love hillsongs! (: it was fun and the whole atmosphere was really high. had so much fun jumping and singing around. awesome. was with cheryl and met two of her cousins sherry and samatha. we had a hard time queuing up tho. pastor kong was there! and the usherers were cute. wahaha.

going to pan wei bo's mini concert tmr. rayl got the tixs.

i'm like drained alr. nites all (:

some pictures taken today! (:

me and siti.

jinxian and me!

zhiyi and me.

the npcc clique.

cheryl and me!

i'm sorry.

2005-08-07T02:50:00.000+08:00

felt like blogging suddenly. it's one of those nights when i can't get to sleep and then things start running through my mind.

sometimes i wish it's a private blog so i can really blog about everything i want. there's like so much things in my head i dunno whr to start already.

i miss hanging out with herman.
i miss talking to sheena.
i miss playing around with the e2 clique.
i miss studying in captain cook almost every single day with the girls.
i miss 2e1'04!
i miss having fun with ruth, gordon and gang.
i miss bintan camp.
i miss sparkc.
i miss just lying on the beach looking at stars.
i miss walking alone in the night.
i miss so many things.

i miss darius too.
nites all (:

deep inside the corner of my mind, i'm attached to you.
tell me it's gonna be different*

little brother.

2005-08-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

went to plaza sing and then heerens with lileen, eileen and rayl. (:
watched the korean movie -little brother-.
based on a true story about a little boy whose brother got cancer and he met a new friend woon who also has cancer. the little boy changed from a naive and mean boy to a more understanding brother and friend. he tried very hard to help make them happy. In the end woon died.
[ i think i suck at storytelling ]

anyways, three of us cried! hah. i thought it was a great show. go watch it! (:

might be going to town with eileen and lileen tmr. not sure i wanna stay home or go.
i wanna go to the marina carnival! jinxian and ziq's been bugging me to go. it sounds like fun.

i finished my amaths homework! i think i'm guai today. heh. (:
nites all.

*i wish.

i think i'm falling in love again.

2005-08-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

decided to re-blog and type a nice entry since i haven really been bloggin properly since a few days again. school's been busy but fun too. i failed my emaths btw. yeah i am an IDIOT. hur. right rayl? haha.

school's has been like. project. homework. course. project. homework. course. grrr.
the debate thing was totally ridiculous. super boring. anyways forget about all that.

lesson's been fun and i totally love hanging around and playing with houjun and yingtong! hah. yengjie and jeremy are so funny! love my class lah (:
ZUL IS SO SO SO SO CUTE. thanks for everything!

we cut sheeps' hearts during biology today. damn gross and disgusting. like you see those capillaries, blood clots, ateries and what u call chordae todinae [ i think ] right in front of you.
and then assholes like PREMNATH and JEREMY dig through the ateries, stuff them through their fingers and then disturb the girls around the lab. see how sickening they get.

oh and prem did something stupid today. he suddenly appeared next to me during morn assembly and said.
- jenny look! this is my new friend john! -
*holding a black small moth with it's legs still wriggling*
SO FUNNY PREM. hahaha.

got so much interesting stuff to blog about but i'm tired alr. i love toffee and dous! (:
i'm happy today. went out with darius. everything was like fine except i was a tiny winy lil bit quiet. lalalala. (:

takecare all nites.

-dreams come true*

mood swings.

2005-08-04T18:17:00.000+08:00

it's either pms or i am just too tired.
been extremely moody these days.
i hate myself sometimes.

thanks jason for listening, for always helping me with my work and for everything. (:

i need to sleep. takecare all (:

so screwed up.

2005-08-04T00:47:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for a couple of days. been quite busy with school work.

stuff have been going around in school and it has definitely affected my mood somehow. i just don understand why some people are just LIKE THAT. shit happens you know. so much stuff happened today and i am feeling pretty vexed alr.

to rach and yingtong: cheer up kay girls. i wouldn't say i understand totally what you are going through but i will always be there. don get too stressed up okay, esp yingtong. you are not superwoman you know (: love you girls. i wanna see the crazy both of you in school soon okay.

to yingtong: you need to take a break girl! let's go k-box with eileen soon alright. after this busy week kay. love (:

i am so tired. so tired. but i've got amaths work undone. shucks. nites all (:

reach out for the skies, with wings to soar up high.

2005-08-01T21:58:00.000+08:00

went to yingtong's place with peiqi after school. suppose to do project but the thumbdrive thing something wrong. hah. anyways. i love yingtong! (: she's such a sweetie!

physics was OOOooKAY today. hah. don't you think it looks funny?

I WANT A PET DOG BADLY! (:

had a really long talk with cheryl today during cdp lesson. got to know that girl alot better. i will always there if you need a listening ear! (: love ya.

things got a lil bad when i was talking to lifen just now. i guess i just have to let things cool down and everything will be fine again. i'm sorry if i've done anything wrong.

i am missing lileen and eileen already! having been hanging out with them lately. love u girls!

i really cherish everything i have right now. esp my friends and family. thanks for everything.
i am really happy with the way things are and i have never been happier. (: I LOVE YA ALL HEAPS!!!
i love my wonderful bro, dwayne. i may not have been a perfect sister but thanks for being such an understanding brother.

darius (: you will probably not be reading this but i wanna thank you for everything! thanks for always been there to listen and always making me smile. you are just so sweet.

my dreams came true, when i found you.
if you could see what i see, you're answer to my prayers.
if you could feel the tenderness i feel, you would know, it would be clear,
that angels brought me here.
-guy sebastian

i'm so dead.

2005-07-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

i'm just so fcking unreasonably LAZY. throw some brain cells into my head. i have a THREE CHAPTERS physics test TOMORROW. and what am i doing? sitting in front of my computer blogging, chatting on msn and looking at people on friendster.

ugh. SCREW MYSELF.

i need to study.
i'm going to study!
studying is fun!
i'm sure it is!

i wish SARS would strike singapore again and then everybody would be quarantined at home by TMR MORNING.

OH THAT'S MEAN. i am always bullshitting. yah yah i needa mug. bye all (:

shopping! i'm broke!

2005-07-31T11:47:00.000+08:00

went shopping with siti ytd! i'm broke alr.
bought the charles and keith shoes i wanted for quite long! a necklace from muee and pencil case from 37 degrees.
went to bugis then to town then to kovan for dinner. met so many pple. dan, huijuan, sujun, eunice and hazel! (: love the girls!

and we took neoprints too. it wasn't very nice cuz didn't know hw to use the machine. hah.

slept at like 8 ytd. was so tired. hah. don feel like going out today! tmr's physics test. more mugging. (:

yay. neat neat room!

2005-07-30T01:17:00.000+08:00

i am totally drained already. but my room is very very neat alr!!!!!!!!!!!
NEAT AS IN REALLY NEAT OKAYYYYYYY. (: so happy. it's so clean and neat now!
been packing up for the past 3 hours until it's finally done. yay!

going to help my dad tmr. he went to the docs today. i was sleeping so didn't pei him go. aiyeeeeee. nvm. i know he's gonna be alright! i hardly talk about my dad but i love my dad! (:

i'm tired. so tired. nites all!

HOW ADORABLE. HE'S MINE. ALLL MINEE!!!!

best friends! (: EILEEN abit funny ar?

my messy room!

2005-07-29T20:25:00.000+08:00

come home pretty early today after having lunch at compass with my class pple. i love houjun, yingtong, siti, sinteck and yengjie! (: so fun hanging ard with them!

mr choh is getting on my nerves. yes it's funny for the first few weeks but i realise he seriously doesn't know how to teach. for heavens' sake, it's already the 21st century and your way of teaching doesn't work anymore. especially when you are NOT teaching in some top school with extremely guai students. you know we won't just SHUT UP when you ask us to. i hope mrs gibson comes back soon. (:

i realise rachel-tkgs can yak and yak and yak nonstop. hahaha. dan is very very funny. and i'm not a retard.

i needa pack up my going-to-be-damn-messy room soon. bye all (:

tkgs investiture.

2005-07-28T22:18:00.000+08:00

actually had alot to blog ytd but i was too tired! was really happy ytd. heh.
1) i scored 18/20 for ss
2)i'm sitting next to ZUL for physics! yay. he's so funny.
3)i talked to darius on the phone! (:
4)i had alot of fun.
5)anthony's getting better!
6)took alot of pictures!

went for tanjong katong girls' investiture today with jiaqi. it was AWESOME! i seriously realise what's wrong with our school pb. the students are not supportive at all. anyways, i totally love the school spirit! (: they made the whole investiture so fun and the girls well ultra enthu! not forgetting the cheers when they screamed so loudly that adriel was complaining. but i thought it was way cool!
met quite a few new friends too.
melissa, delia, rachel, anqi, the-very-~~funneh~~ funny lois and mariam all from tkgs. adriel and weijie from acs barker.they were touring the school with us. kinda fun. but i guess melissa and anqi were kinda busy entertaining the guys. hah. i guess it's like that when girl schools girls meet guy schools guys. and i must say the guys are really well-mannered! (:

i really love the way things work in their school. rachel and delia have defintely been great hosts. thanks girls (: tkgs rocks! and oh, i saw miaohui too!

mrs somu didn't scold me today! like surprising. i am such a guai PREEEEEEFECCCT. mr alan is always trying to kajiao me. hahaha but i still like him! i think he's ~~funnneh~~. FUNNY.

and for the bad thing today. i scored 21/40 for my amaths. maybe it's influence from eileen, i'm starting to THINK I AM STUPID. just look at rach and adriel. they are like so clever. give the -oh-i-don-do-my-homework- talk and still score for exams. THIS IS SO NOT FAIR. and they are only SECONDARY TWO. i wanna be cleverer!

it's thurdays alr and the weekend is coming. i just haveta mug hard for my biology test tmr and that's it. play for TWO days! uh no. make it ONE. i have physics test on monday.

I NEED TO START GOING HOME EARLY AND STUDY AND STUDY AND STUDY AND STUDY.

SOME pictures frm ytd. (: if i have the time i will try to upload everything in a folder. SOON, i guess. heh.

love the babes!!! (:

lick banana lick.

see. acting stupid AGAIN. haiyer. hahahaha.

see no evil, hear no evil and speak no evil. haha

with the 1e3 girls!

I'M LAZY TO UPLOAD PICS ALR. HEH.
nites all (: muaaaaaaahhhhs.

be yourself day. fun fun fun!

2005-07-27T22:15:00.000+08:00

i think i am MAD today. like seriously. i've been taking pictures, screaming, laughing, running around and taking pictures. did i just mention that again? hahaha. told you i am mad already.

i'm SO HAPPY today. SO SO HAPPY. everything was just so awesome today. heh. took so many pictures i don't know where to start uploading. i promise they gonna be up soon! (:

I LOVE MY ELEVEN PLUS BABES! thanks for always been there, for all the laughter and fun. thanks so much. LOVE YA ALL (:

I LOVE CHARMAINE AND THE E3 BABIES! (: thanks charmaine for everything. love you girl to bits! (:

I LOVE RAYL, HERMAN, XIONGWEI, WEIAN, CORINA, KENNETH, SITI, JASON, DARIUS, SINTECK, ALEX, YENGJIE, HOUJUN, YINGTONG, RACHEL, CHERYL, MICHELLE, BECCA, ZUL, SHAFIQ, WEILOON, WEIXIONG, SARAN, PREM, TSY, ZHEN, SIHUI and MY CLASS! thanks for all the fun and company! (:

I LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE TODAY. I AM SO HAPPY.
MUAAAAAAACKKKS. *RUNS UP AND HUGS*

nites all. i have a darn emaths test tmr but it's okay! i'm so happy i can keep awake the whole night! love (:

i almost forgot something. I LOVE ANTHONY TOO! (: so happy to see he's doing so much better. we all miss you in school. get well soon. you are such a strong boy! (:
-
i wanna be so happy every single day. with you (:

les miserables

2005-07-27T00:46:00.000+08:00

just read les miserables by victor hugo. it's really nice! so much nicer then i expected. i almost teared. it's sad how Jean Valjean died in the end. he's a really nice guy.

i want to be a nice person. and i will try hard. (:

lalalalala* i miss u.

i miss you.

2005-07-26T23:26:00.000+08:00

amaths and chinese was OKAY today. didn't have enough time for both. slept for really long just now. was really tired. hah.
thank you jason! for making an effort to wake me up at 5 in the morning. but, i didn't wake up in the end. heh sorry! i think he can qualify for my full-time nanny. he's so aunty. thanks for everything!

went to have lunch with eileen and lileen after sch at yoshi and talked alot of funny things. hah. love the girls (: we skipped trg together. heh.

lazy to blog alr. some pictures frm the last vistarian race!

INTEGRITAS HOUSE CHAMPIONS! (: MY TEAM! i miss mr marvin chan!

yingtong and me! (: she doesn't look like she can score a1 for everything single subject does she? hahaha. she's so crazy.

and overall THE WINNING TEAM!

tired.

2005-07-26T00:34:00.000+08:00

haven like stayed up to study for darn long already. FOUR tests this week. i'm tired. amaths and chinese tmr. i seriously hope i won't do badly. i didn't really study hard for amaths and my chinese is still half done. it's already the third term and i am still in the holiday mood.

i scored 5/20 for my physics surprise quiz. you can see how much my grades are deproving.
i think i better start bucking up and listen in physics class. shucks. this reminds me i need to copy lines. heh. 4 pages of - i need to pay attention in class -
tell me i am the best prefect ever.
i still think mr lee is a nice teacher. i'd probably get hours of detention or face mr reduan's face if i did that to other teachers.

studying is so not fun. really.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE TOFFEE! NOT FORGETTING DOUDOU AND LILEEN! (:

*tell me it's not a dream

(:

2005-07-24T22:30:00.000+08:00

i feel like blogging again. heh. watched the island already. it's a great movie! i totally love the whole storyline. it's about clones, being cloned and stuff LIKE THAT. i really think it's nice. i'd give it a 9 out of 10. watch it!

i am so addicted to the shooting bball game at the arcade! hahaha.

okay BYE. i am such a goon.

eleven plus.

2005-07-24T21:57:00.000+08:00

some pms and mood swings ytd but i'm fine now. thanks all for your concern! loads of things to update on. first things first, i really wanna really thank eileen for the lovely gift. (:

i'm touched! thanks so much girl. love u to bits.

more pictures.

at sentosa the other time.

toffee and hebe! (: how cute. miss them!

cheryl, rach, siti and me.

look at EILEEN!!

eileen and lileen.

OH. i dunno how this got into my phone. RIGHT RAYL?

jinxian and lileen.

the ECs.

AND MY FAVOURITE PICTURE OF THE DAY !!!! (:

met up with the eleven plus girls today. we gonna have our own shirts for be-yourself day! (: love ya all.
pretty lazy to blog anymore. nites all. takecare! =)

i think it's so extremely difficult being a nice person, i can't seem to do it.

sigh.

2005-07-22T23:21:00.000+08:00

had a fun time with dogs, eileen and lileen today. love them so much (:

i don usually mind what others say but when i think about it at times, i just feel upset about it.
i try to put things in my stride and accept things the way they are most of the time. i might not mention it but some of those comments people make really hurt.
i wonder whether i am really so extremely mean, so fat, so undesirable and unnice.

it's perfectly fine with me if you are just someone who doesn't know me, but it's different when your close friends say the same things.
i rather not know you didn't trust me that much. it really hurts.

superstar!

2005-07-21T21:47:00.000+08:00

kelly is so extremely good man. 40.5 points okay! even my mum asked me to vote for her. hah. so called a few times for her. chanel is good too! =)

weekend's coming so soon already! yoooohoooo* so looking forward to having fun! going to lileen hse tmr. i miss the lovely dogs. going out with the girls on sat and going for the zpop concert! sounds like fun. and then hanging out with the eleven plus girls on sunday. lalalala. i so gonna have fun already. love them all truckloads (:

didn't go for trg today. went to amaths class and do homework. i am so super guai TODAY. hah. then went to compass with eileen and lileen. and kajiao lileen in canteen today. ahaha. SO FUN. i totally love it when she gives me the -i-think-i-want-to-kill-you-already- look. hahahaha. i know you love me too.

got so pissed off with that STU*I*. KUKU. i don want to mention who- new teacher in school. if you don't know anything, you should just SHUTUP and not act like ms know-it-all. it helps because i wouldn't have to draw that damn graph 3 times. and then realising that i didn't have to do that shit. maybe i wouldn be that fed up if my mood was like better and you bothered to say SORRY. ugh.

but of course lessons are enjoyable sometimes. it's just so fun with the girls ard. chinese lesson was extremely funny and fun today! had a debating thing about our uniform and teenagers THESE DAYS. heh. i love mrs seah sometimes. but she's real naggy.

i dunno why but i'm feeling FAT now. what the hell am i so FAT? i need to lose FATS. hahahaha. maybe i should stop complaining. [ NO NEGATIVE COMMENTS ALLOWED, PLEASE ]

think i gonna slp soon already. i have so much work to do and complete after the weekend's play. FOUR tests coming alr. i think i need to start studying ~~SOON~~.

this moment forever *

(:

2005-07-20T23:43:00.000+08:00

i felt like blogging again but i have no idea what to blog leh. hah.

denny cheer up! everything will be fine and better tmr (: jia you k!

EVERY PART OF WEIJIAN IS CUTE LOH JASON. HE'S JUST CUTE. YAH OKAY shutup. SHUTUP GAY. don talk to me already.
hahahaha.

i think it's extremely fun to chat to jason. hah. laugh till very fun. x)

i am addicted to saying shutup. too much of mr choh's influence. he's a corny unreasonable but funny old man. so cute! wahaha.

sorry ziq! hah. i'll hug u tmr again! sorry lar i was busy just now. and stop telling me you love ur balls. sicko. hahaha.

i am going crazy already. too tired. nites all.
*jumps on the bed and screams*

lalala. i miss u.

2005-07-20T22:17:00.000+08:00

went to visit herman today. he's been sick for two days ler. hah. missed him in school! bought a big sunflower with yingtong and i made a card for him. =) haha. he was very touched. very happy to see pple happy. haha. GET WELL SOON! (: [ i am sucha nice friend ]

suppose to do project but since herman's sick then we do other days elsewhr. hah. went to compass to have lunch with yt, wendy, lifen, peiqi and siti. met rachel and the clique there ltr. eileen and lileen also there! hah. after that went back with alex and rayl. alex come my hse cut hair. stupid guy! haha.

andrew's been ignoring me on msn. i don't know why. hmm hope he's fine! cheer up (:

the course today was boring but then had a nice time talking to yt and houjun. talking about our lives and different we are. i guess everyone has their own problems. nobody is perfect! but i think i am very lucky already. i have got wonderful friends, wonderful family and a happy life. (:

suddenly chatting to alot of pple chatting to me. hah. blog next time. nites all! love ya all.

i miss you *

(:

2005-07-19T23:12:00.000+08:00

i failed my history test for HALF A MARK. ugh! i didn't expect to fail. i studied for it. 3/4 of the class failed. i know that's not an excuse for my bad results, JASON. i need to buck up alr!

went to visit anthony just now. the poor boy can't get up. been lying for six days and still got many many more days to go. hah. so glad that he's looking fine and so happy alr. must be thanks to xiaoqi. she visits him everyday after school from sk okay! haha.
quite broke. took a cab to and fro. went with eileen lileen and sikai. huiyuan jiaqi and the quite alot of the atheletics team were there.
stay strong and positive anthony. we all wanna see you back in school again! =)

had alot of fun playing with houjun and rachel in school today. stupid rachel. haha. nowadays we are getting closer. always talk rubbish together. she' so cute. hah. si houjun. you think you tall i scared is it?! hahaha. love the girls!=)

somebody triggered the fire alarm in school today on purpose. RIGHT ON RENE LIM'S LESSON! lalala. so we missed emaths and mr rashideen wasn't here. so didn really study much today. i hope that alarm triggers more often.

there's a course in school tmr. rahhhhh. sucha waste of time.
been waking up late and not running for the past two day.
i must run tmr! sorry lileen and eileen.

nites all. (:

i hope u'll always be there*

interesting blog.

2005-07-18T23:32:00.000+08:00

was sufting through blogs and i found this link which i particularly quite like.
http://onelittletwit.blogspot.com/
and for her past entires.
http://theballoonday.com/ [ read the first entry ]
i like the way she blogs so convincingly and her extremely tokkong english.

pizza hut!

2005-07-18T22:14:00.000+08:00

went to pizza hut with eileen lileen and siti today! had a very fun time talking rubbish and playing. stupid girls. haha.
anyways the service there was sucky. the woman just slammed the chilli sauce bottle on the table when i asked for it. lileen and me made bad comments very loudly but she deserved it. it's not like we are not paying your service. rahhh nvm.

had a long talk with my class girls during p.e lesson. dunno why we started talking about being fat, losing weight and fats. haha. cheryl claims she's fat. SO I AM DAMN FAT LAR. haha. quite fun talking to all of them. then was playing with rachel during chem lesson. that short girl is damn cute. haha. hope michelle jian fei cheng gong. hah. me too! x) love them all!

i think i am quite lucky. i am pretty much happy with my life and everything [ besides for the fact i am fat ]. i love my friends and family! =))

think i have got so much work not done. i think i better do it soon. esp my amaths. late for i dunno how long alr. heh.

jason is such an idiot *HIGHTLIGHTS, BOLD AND UNDERLINED*. always sms in the middle of the night when every normal person should be sleeping. stupid aunty. hah. not that i reply his msgs. i see alr go back sleep. heh. anyways he played with his phone cuz he was bored, change password and got it locked. HOW STUPID CAN YOU GET? hahahaha. then call starhub in the middle of the night. idiot. haha.

i am lazy to blog alr. think i'm going to visit anthony tmr. =) hope that he's doing fine and strong. nites all!

shopping!

2005-07-17T21:01:00.000+08:00

i am lazy to change my skin alr lar. heh. so just leave it.

had an extremely fun day out with that weird woman today! went to parco bugis to shop. eileen bought two tanktops AGAIN. i think she has 3154651235 tanktops at home alr. i bought a bag and earring for my bro. i'm sucha nice sister. hah. went out with 80 then left with 30. i'm broke! i need to save money to get the so many things i want. we walked for very long then went to ~~starbucks~~ coffeebean[ i rem starbucks leh but eileen's blog write coffeebean. haha. nvm think i wrong. ] to sit down for awhile then go compass. thanks eileen for pei-ing me. heh.

oh ya we met instructor ivy! and her bf i think. hah. so surprised to see her!

we laughed so much on the train. eileen should just post up all her pri 2 diary entries. so darn funny! read her blog. she's damn weird. and oh. PRI TWO STUDENTS SPELL BYEBYE CORRECTLY LOR. hahaha. BEYBYE?! x)

we took neoprints! school tmr. feeling lazy right now. bedtime soon!

i love u girl! let's go shopping again. hahaha.